73- The Ball of Gergesenes

I noticed that I was given in my childhood, answers to some problems as it was destined that I would meet these problems. For example, when I read the Revelation to John I got sick of describing me by sheep. Yes that sheep seemed different as it had seven eyes and seven spirits; and he was destined to fight the kings and conquer them. In the beginning I took it as funny description and laughed.  But later it annoyed me. In my society it is great insult to describe a man by sheep. So in every time I passed with that description I felt annoyed.

I joined some Christian groups on Face Book and tried to convince them that Jesus can't be a sheep. But they refused my remark and refused the correction I suggested for the Revelation to John. I told them it can be corrected by putting the word Shepherd instead of sheep. But they refused my correction and reminded me with what John the Baptist had said when he saw Jesus. "This is the lamb of God that will raise the sins of the world."  I told them, there is symbolic meaning in that saying and it is very different from the picture. But they insisted not to agree with me.

All that suffering was sketched in my boyhood. Once, while being a student in the primary school, I gathered with two friends of my area at the house of one of them, to study together. The light of the room was not high and I slept. When I awoke I found out that my friends put spots and lines of colors on my face. I felt angry and blamed them for their foolish deeds. They laughed and laughed and I took it easy in the end. It means that my disciples couldn't avoid expressing some foolish ideas because they didn't understand the subject clearly and the parable of the plant and the thorn is applied to their sayings.  

In my childhood the Spirit tried to remind me with the terrible sheep. Once I was playing alone in the wide area in front of my house and from no where a fearful sheep emerged before me and stood on his rear legs ready to hit me by his long and thick horns. As I was not near to my house I ran in the other direction. But the sheep ran after me. Every time I looked behind me I saw him still after me. I reached the next area and entered the house of one of my relatives with lost breath.

The lady of the house took me in her bosom and tried to calm me. She was surprised asking what happened. I was unable to speak; but I glimpsed the sheep at the outer door hesitating to enter and finally he went away. When I came down and told the lady about the terrible sheep she smiled and asked a denying question, "Do you fear a sheep?" I thought to myself, "She didn't see his huge volume and how he was taller than me when he stood on his legs."

The Spirit also brought an event from the life of Jesus in my childhood. Once I went to the adjacent area and a friend called Gerges from my primary school met me there and gifted me a big amount of strings to use it for making ball.  I returned to my area happy and my friends there asked me where from I got it. One of them, on hearing the Christian name Gerges, mocked me severely and wanted me to return the strings to him. I refused and went home. But next days he continued to mention the mocking so that I quarreled with him several times for it.

Later, after my transform, I wondered to see an event for Jesus in the Arabic Bible in a place called The Ball of Gergesenes.  It was about the mad man who was haunted by a group of devils and Jesus sent them to the pigs that were drowned. In the English Bible that place was called the territory of Gadara and there is no mention to the Ball of Gergesenes. However I searched for it lately on Google and found it as the country of Gergesenes. It was a cruel method used by the Holy Spirit to engrave the incident in the memory. It was also an insult to tell a person, you are son of woman. I read in the Quran and Hadith the name of Jesus as "Esa son of Mary" It annoyed me and I tried in my writing to correct it to be Esa the Messiah. I knew that the Holy Spirit had to avoid saying Esa Son of God to be in compromise with the whole subject of the Quran.

In preparing a flat for my marriage I went with my fiancee to the market to buy some chandeliers. We admired two chandeliers and we bought them. One of them is a tray, on its circumference there are seven angels blowing seven trumpets, and standing on equal distances. They seem like moving in succession that their faces are in the same direction. And it contains three lamps. The glassy disc contains a quadratic star inside a shape of eight triangular heads. Sure it was to remind with the seven angels mentioned in the Revelation to John before knowing it by the consciousness. And it was to remind with number eight which is mentioned in the Quran about the eight who carry the throne of God.   

The second chandelier contains a big Crystal hanging from it. It was to remind with Christ that the word Crystal sounds like Christ. Now I remember another incident that happened in my childhood about a Crystal. In the preparatory school, once I entered the library and read a book about how to make the Crystal Radio. After a few months I could get the necessary tools to do it. After many trials by changing the Crystal I succeeded in hearing a voice from it. It deserves to mention that I didn't know the name Christ except after going to the English Institute. In Arabic we know it as the Messiah Esa not Jesus Christ. It is clear that the Spirit knows all names but He likes to approach the facts in different ways using the things around us.  

  

72- In The Focus of Creating

I always made revisions to what I had of information. I narrated before the reactions which brought the memory of Yahweh with Moses in my childhood. The transformation of the stick to a snake became the transformation of the stick to a gun etc. Now I recalled an incident from the preparatory school that can be added to that time. While we were in the break a student called (My Proud) approached and asked me to show my hands. After seeing my palms he said,

"They are reddish; this means you have anemia." Other students with us didn't agree and said,

"But it means excess in blood." He insisted and said,

"My father is a doctor; you should eat well to recover."  Just after he said that he showed us his two palms. We saw the very white color of his two palms. There was no red in them, but they matched the color of his snowy face. Of course this incident was to remind by the event when Yahweh ordered Moses to put his hands inside his bosom then get it out; and it came out of his bosom very white.

Also in the story of Adam I recalled some incidents that can be added to the reactions. In the preparatory school, I had a friend called (Father of all). So when I meditated how my new transform started as brief touches from the story of Jesus I became sure that this friend had been prepared by the Spirit to remember Adam the father of all. The matter seemed as if the Spirit had been trying early to remind me with the story of Adam.

This friend was living in the far part of The Street of the bridge of law in Bacos. We knew each other from the primary school before being together in the preparatory school. I visited him home several times and he introduced me to his elder brother. He also introduced to me a friend called Al Kalashany living in the house lying in front of his house.  When I meditated in the meaning of that rare name I found it sound like a brief of a few Arabic words put together as (All is for me). Later I understood that the word (All) points to the created and invented things upon the earth.

It means that Adam was in the focus of the mind of the Creator before creating all things. When The Creator willed to embody Adam on Earth the power of His will moved in different directions and created all the things and living beings before the getting of Adam as a human being.

I recalled also that once the presidents and kings of the countries around Egypt were of weird names; president of Syria was Assad (Lion), president of Saudi Arabia was Fahd (Cheetah) and president of Sudan was Nemery (Tiger). That was in the time of President Mubarak (Blessed). When we read the Revelation to John we see what he saw in heaven; we see his description of God while he was sitting on his throne surrounded by animals. So it seemed that those presidents were given as something to embody part of the Revelation to deduce that the meaning of the heaven is a futuristic place.   

I wondered why my autobiography was full of the holy stories of the bible. The matter seemed as if the bible was the scenario which God used to make me and my surrounding people perform with a new viewpoint. The stories were developed in the acting without exact similarity. It was like the many stories which were made as films but were not in exact similarity of the written papers.

We were taught in Islam that the miracle which God gave Mohammad is the style of the text of the Quran.  Its style surpassed the poetries which were the brightest activities of the people of his time. We were taught that God gives his missionaries miracles in compromise with the brightest activities of the people but surpasses them. Moses was given miracles in compromise with magic because magic was the brightest activities of the Egyptian of his time, but he surpassed them. Jesus was given miracles in compromise with healing because healing was the brightest activity of the people of his time, but he surpassed them.

My subject seemed the same. The brightest activity this age is in compromise with performing in the cinema, but my performing in the real life as led by the hidden hand of God surpassed all directors. Can any director lead his actor to sink in the sea and save him without interference? It happened with me to imitate the story of Jonah as mentioned before. The unseen director is clear in all stories. When He wanted to remind me with the story of Job He made a boy with us get the symptoms of Job's illness. The doctors couldn't heal him for several years. But He healed him in the end without doctors. 

71- I Won Golden Dish

I was still in the English Institute in the Christmas of 1982. The teachers prepared for the celebration and chose me among others to perform a little story, in front of a young woman, without papers, in the program of the party and I did it very well. They sang for Jesus Christ a lovely song, "Jesus Christ is here…"  I liked it and I was about to weep and I wished I could shout, "Yes he is really here this time!"  The teacher of my section was a beautiful lady called Sharon. Her voice was very lovely to my ears in this song.

Part of the program was titled by the parcel. A teacher came in front of all students and said, "This parcel contains a present and it will rotate among you with the music such that the one who has the parcel should handle it to his neighbor continually.  When the music stops the one whom the parcel becomes in his hand should uncover the parcel. It is wrapped in many covers and he should reveal one cover only. The one who will get it with the last cover will win the present."

Some students asked, "What is this present?" The teacher replied, "It is a surprise. Let's start now." Soon the music started and the parcel (scroll) moved from a hand to another and stopped several times with the stopping of the music. It seemed that the covers of the parcel were without end. The final stop came when it was in my hands. When I revealed the last cover I found a lovely golden dish. The teacher smiled and asked all to congratulate me and give me big hand.

My thoughts tried to find out the meaning of that symbolic event. The golden dish seemed to be the disc of the sun which represents the success and fame. So I was advancing in my subject believing that one day I would be known to all nations. Through doubt and faith I proceeded, so that every time I thought of the incredibility to be Jesus I received some information to confirm me.  

Next day at home, I wrote about the party two pages and I showed them to a teacher from another section. He said, "This is better than the real party." The teacher Sharon took the papers from me promising to read them at home. She wondered that I was the only one who made it without instructions.

When I read the book of Protocols of Learned Elders of Zion and the book of Masonry I believed that Jews have been working for me. I found out many ideas that were coming with my own ideas which I had concluded before. The writer of the Protocols speaks about the international ruler of the world. It matches the idea in Christianity that they pray for the coming of the kingdom of heaven which means the wish of making that kingdom on earth with the return of Christ. But the writer as a Jewish, not approving Jesus, didn't speak of Jesus, but he speaks of a Messiah independent from Jesus. So the Protocols seemed as an extension to the bible without considering the New Testament. It means that three religions are awaiting the same Christ.

The root of the idea of the kingdom of heaven came from the promise to Abraham and his people to own a nation from River Nile to River Euphrates by the power of faith in God.  When Jesus came and studied why the promised nation had not come yet, he understood the reasons and tried to amend the way. The reasons of the failure are briefly: the lack of Faith and the bad relation between the people and their God due to His sharp instructions, which made the Jews unworthy of the grace of the kingdom. The bible as a god couldn't help in making them realize the kingdom of Abraham. So Jesus, in wanting to amend the situation, gave new instructions full of forgiveness and mercy; and showed the power of perfect faith which can't fail in fulfilling any wish. Briefly he sacrificed the sharp instructions for the sake of success in attaining the promised nation. And he widened the promise to be a general kingdom all over the earth including all nations.

So when the writer of the Protocols mentioned the expression Ruler of The World he seemed knowing the final task of Jesus Christ. But for the national tradition he didn't mention it clearly. And many learned Christians deduced that the man who would unite all nations and rule them would be different from Jesus Christ. Some of them thought that Jesus will come from heaven at the end to fight that one who came from the earth. Some others stopped at the idea that the heavenly kingdom is a spiritual kingdom behind heaven and earth.

A very awful event happened. Sharon the minister of defense in Israel attacked the camps of the Palestinians in Sabra and Shatila and assassinated many. All the world news showed it. The coincidence that my teacher was Lady Sharon and the minister was Sharon made my mind rotate searching for the meaning. I found a prophecy in the Old Testament, I don't remember now, about some one called Bu Sharon.

I felt my dangerous situation in Egypt as a country against Israel. The peace treaty of 1978 between Egypt and Israel which was made in Camp David, among the presidents of the two systems, didn't reach to the lower levels. Many loved the treaty not for the love of the enemy but for the desire to get rid of the wars which coasted the country a lot and weakened the economy. It was very difficult to tell them that the return of Israel was in connection with the return of Jesus as a holy subject that happened to make some prophecies come true. "You won't complete the cities of Israel until the Son of Man comes," said Jesus.  This prophecy came true as I explained before that the new birth of Israel happened in May 15, 1948 and I got my birth in June 10, 1948. The word (until) was realized in a difference of less than one month.  I always thought that Israel was given by God as a political sign to confirm me, but who can listen to that from me without suspensions although I have never known any Jew or Mason or Zion. I was just like the actor Al Mohandas with his invention of transforming the cotton to cloth by a machine.