75- AlKhadr Teacher of Moses

The most important knowledge I has been got during researching was that Jesus kept living till he became in my body. In Islam we learned from Quran that Jesus was raised to God alive. And from the book of Isra and Mearag which describes the journey of Muhammad to Jerusalem and heaven, we learned that Jesus and John are looking like each other and they stayed in the third heaven. So no Muslim knew the truth of the phenomenon of being raised alive to God.

Now after I was trained in seeing the relation between my past and present actions I became anxious to know what happened to Jesus after being raised to Heaven, and there was no reference for it except my own autobiography. However in that time of the beginning of my experience I was busy and didn't read the Acts of the Apostles in the gospel. Later I knew from it how Jesus helped from behind the veil in spreading his mission.

The name Raised in Peace, as I narrated before, came in the beginning of my journey to remind with the fact. Also, the main street of the Bridge of Law or Bacuos got a new name for the famous historian Al Rafay which means the raised. Connecting this with Genesis I could understand that Enoch was raised to Heaven like Jesus.  

The gospel of John starts with, "In the beginning was the word and the word were with God and the word was God."  Quran tells, "Jesus is the word of God." So, I thought that the burning of my book, Survival Call, in the hospital could represent a sign for the rising of Jesus like the rising of Elijah in fire. I remembered a lesson from Chemistry about the evaporation of materials; we took it in the secondary school. It is about the conversion of the material from the solid state to vapor directly without passing in the liquid state.

I was creeping toward the truth of the past slowly and through doubt. One day I was to go to Cairo to renew the medical card of my parents; and I passed by my uncle N. Salem. As he was like a friend rather than a father to me I told him my experience in Christ. He said,

"This is why they made you retire early. It is a dangerous matter. I have a suggestion!" He waited a while to here my reply.

"Okay," I said. "What is it?"

"I know a Sufi man in Helwan," he said, "let's visit him to have his opinion in your case." As I don't mind to be searched I agreed. Before leaving the house to go on the visit he said to his wife my aunt,

"We are going to visit AlKhadr to see about the reason of Abdo change."

"Do you mean AlKhadr, the husband of A. T.?" she asked. "Why? Is he haunted by evil?"

"We will tell you after returning," he replied.

We got on the Metro and my mind couldn't stop in thinking of the meaning of the new equation made by the names. AlKhadr was a name taken from the name of the Man of God who the Sufis know for the man who met Moses and seemed wiser than him. They say he lives for ever as the teacher of Sufism. This story is told in the Quran only. But the equation was that the wife of the man we were going to visit had the same name of my wife. As I didn't believe in coincidences I believed that the equation was prepared by the Holy Spirit.

The Bible doesn't mention what the Quran mentioned. Because the Quran intended to throw light on some hidden facts that can't be known except by reaching their level. In the Bible no one met Moses as teacher to him except Yahweh the Omniscient and Omni powerful. It means that Quran wanted to reveal the truth that Yahweh was a heavenly man alive in heaven. Jesus had understood that fact so that he said, "Who saw me saw the Father." He knew very well that he played the role of Yahweh as the deputy of God.

My uncle and I met a very decent man Alkhadr. He welcomed us and showed great pleasure. My uncle said to him,

"This is the son of my brother and I came to you to see about his situation." Al khadr looked at me with tender gaze and said,

"He has a Spirit with him."

"Is it evil Spirit?" my uncle asked.

"No!" he answered. "It is good Spirit."

"What is the name of that Spirit?" my uncle asked.

"To get the name of this Spirit," Alkhadr said, "you should attend on next Friday gathering "Alhadra"

"Do you mean you can't know now?" my uncle asked.

"Everything has rules and arrangements," Alkhadr answered. "However I have strong impression that the Spirit with him is good. Don't afraid for him."

We thanked him and left and I recalled that lately my parents took my picture and visited someone like that spiritual man. They said,

"When he saw your picture he shrugged and said, 'He is good. He is good. I can't say anything about him.' "

Of course I belong to the modern world that ignores these ways. I returned to Alexandria and didn't think of attending the Friday Gathering "Alhadra" which means the attendance of God.

Later on, I read the following in the story of the great Sufi Abdul Kader Algelany. He said, "I went to the desert of Iraq to live isolated from people. There I met a man and we practiced together some ways of spiritual progress to reach the attendance of God. After twenty years of staying in the desert I knew that my fellow was Alkahdr and said to him,

"You are Alkhadr! I have known it now."

"Yes, I am," He said. "Now you are ready to teach. Return to Baghdad and find disciples to teach."     

74- Two Nightmares

In a discussion I was asked, "What is the first event you remember from childhood?" I replied this: When I was three years old I left my mother and went out of the room. She didn't take notice and I walked the long corridor to go to the street. We were living in the ground floor. At the outer door I saw the basket of wastes and took something from it thinking it can be eaten. As soon as I put it in my mouth I cried. It seemed that my mouth became filled with needles and bolts. My mother heard my weeping and came quickly to see what happened.

She understood that I ate uncooked piece of Golgotha which is a fruit in Egypt known in English by Taro. Golgotha is its Arabic name as pronounced by the accent of Upper Egypt.  But in north Egypt it is pronounced as Kolkotha. So this cruel event was to remind by the event of crucifying Jesus at Golgotha. My mother took me inside the room quickly and made me a glass of water with sugar to drink.  Soon the needles and bolts vanished from my mouth and I stopped weeping. She didn't forget to say, "This is a lesson for you; don't you ever eat from the wastes." It became a complex in my whole life so that I insisted not to eat the Taro even if it was cooked. Later on in old age I could get rid of that complex. Cocked Taro is delicious.

Still there are two strange events. Also when I was three years old I heard my aunt while she was speaking with my mother and others with us in the house. She was in great tension and fear that her little child disappeared. They searched for him in vain and reported it to the police. When they returned from the police station they heard the weeping of the child coming from under the sofa.

Later I read in the gospel about the event of the missing of Jesus in his childhood.  In that reaction I seemed as a watcher unlike the above event. In the same house, this was owned by Abu Solomon, when I was about three of age, while I was playing in the street a son for Abu Solomon, older than me, pushed me before a coming motorcycle. The rider could hardly avoid tramping over me. I wept and my mother complained to Abu Solomon. The man was very angry and hit his son and blamed him for that evil deed.  

The second strange event is this: When I was ten years old my father bought a small house and paid part of the price on written condition that he should pay the rest next month lest he should loose the house and the money he had paid. The time of paying approached and my father became in great tension so that he lost his ability to speak. The doctor said, "It is a psychic case.", and gave him a medication. He continued on that case about a week. Later I read in the gospel and Quran that Zachariah the father of John suffered the loss of his voice for three days. In that event I played the role of a watcher too.  

When I was about eighteen years old I suffered the acne; one night I slept very annoyed and got a nightmare. I saw myself lying on a long bench and several doctors standing around me. The chief of the doctors cut my head and carried it on his big hand which appeared like a dish; and handled it to another doctor. I didn't feel any pain; it seemed as if he cut a piece of cheese. Soon I saw the chief carrying another head and putting it on my neck. Then he ordered me to get up to see my face on a mirror. When I saw that my own face changed to another person, although pure without acne, I felt very annoyed and soon I awoke.

Later on, I knew that it was a dream to remind with the cutting of the head of John the Baptist. It deserves to mention that in Islam we don't learn about it. After several years, I watched a film titled by "Face Off", and I wondered that this film was based on the idea of my early dream. It contained my same feelings when I saw I was with the face of another person.

It was not the first nightmare in which I saw a head separated from its body. When I was about twenty seven, it was after marriage, I saw the head of the cousin of my father that was killed long ago, flying under water while I was in the sea under water with him. The distance was very short and it terrified me. I cried and got up. This nightmare was classified under the ancient story of Saul in the Bible, that this relative performed brief touches from his story and his life ended by being killed.