109- Alazhr Opinion!

"Why don't you go to Alazhar?"

Going to Alazhar was not a problem but I didn't. You remind me with that one day, say 30 years ago, I sent a little manuscript, titled by Announcing Christ the Groom of Peace, to the Presidency in the time of Mubarak and I was anxious to get a good response. After days I received a letter from the Ministry of Defense. They wrote to me that my book didn't contain military knowledge and I should show it to Alazahar as the principle establishment of Islam in Egypt to approve it for publishing.

I wondered why they asked me to go to Alazhar not considering the knowledge I wrote in the manuscript. I thought they should have been surprised that the airplane and TV were made for Christ to make the prophecy of the coming of Jesus Christ flying from the sky come true. They didn't evaluate highly the value of my subject. They didn't behave as I figured out. They couldn't reach the idea of peace in my book.

I decided not to go to Alazhar because I doubted their judgment on my subject. They deal with religion as math but in reality the Spirit of God deals with it as some kind of art. Most prophecies came true but they would ask about the prophecies which didn't come true. Most learned leaders of religions behave the same in all religions.

One day I tried to surprise one old learned Muslim by telling him that the big sign of the hour of the end Aldabt (Living Creature able to walk and speak) has come true by the Radio. His response was a big smile and then he stood up and walked a few steps saying, Aldabat here is a living being that walks on legs on earth like this. It is not the radio as you say; it is one of the big ten signs of the hour of the end and didn't happen yet; when the time of the end comes God will create it.

I said, "Isn't the Radio better for people than that living creature Aldabat? It made the prophecy comes true in the best way."

"The matter is not which is better for people," he said. "The matter is that God said something and he is able to do it exactly."

"You look at the religious matter as you look at Math," I said. "Religions were made for the human being and the Radio is better than Aldabat. Suppose that the donkey became able to speak the human language; what will he add to the life of people? "

"Don't forget that it comes as a sign for the end of life of the universe," he said.

"Really the holy project of God doesn't tell about the end of the universe," I said. "It planed the union of all nations in the kingdom of God. The end is the end of this holy project which started by the prophet Abraham."

"Sorry! This is wrong! You should read the Quran to see how it tells about the total destruction of the universe," he said.

"I have read the Quran many times," I said. "But I have known the secret of its design. Every Surah is titled by the name of God the Most Merciful and the Most Gracious.  This is done to lessen the harmful pictures shown in it. However you can't reach this result without following the holy plan of God as written in the Old Testament and New Testament."

Alazhar works according to one reference and denies all other references; that make them unable to approve any thing I quoted from the Bible. I depend on showing the holy verses in every religion which witnesses to me but they will refuse a great deal of it. When I say I got my name El Sadek Salem from the Letter to Hebrew in the Gospel and I was to live in a Street by the name Palestine as shown in Genesis they wouldn't feel the greatness in my saying. And when I show them the realization of the talks of Mohammed in me about the return of Jesus they would seek some details which didn't come true. They ignore what come true to ask about what didn't come true.  

I know that every religion has something that has come true in me. It is something that has been planed to make all religious people see a bond with me to encourage them all to believe me and cooperate in doing the ever peace in the Kingdom of God allover the Globe.  

All big signs of the hour of the end have come true but I am sure they will say no, because they have already studied them and put their own theories about them. The sign of Smoke has come true in different things like the smoke of the factories, cars, cigarettes, etc. But they think of a smoke that will cover the whole globe in one time.

The sign of the rising of the sun from the west has come true by discovering the continent of America. The globe as a ball in the modern understanding makes it easy to see that those who live in the west in America are also live in the east relative to the people of the Far East. There is no need for the Sun to change the direction of rotation. Can they accept this interpretation?

The sign of the appearance of the False Messiah who will corrupt in the earth as an atheist has come true. But they will say no because they didn't come to this conclusion by their studies. We had two one eyed famous men who made the prophecy come true. I explained many details about them in my work. The first was Sartre in the world of thinking and the second was Mosa Dian in the field of wars between Egypt and Israel. These wars showed the sign of Gog and Magog. Can they accept this interpretation?

The sign of the coming back of Jesus Christ has come true in me. If we ignored the knowledge of the bible about me we would see signs that came true in me from Mohammed Talks like that I married, that I had two boys, that I came in two Mahrosaht; the first is Egypt which is famous by the title Almahrosaht and the second is the area in which I lived with parents in Bacous. But as the Talk tells that this place is in the east of Damascus they will deny this interpretation. They ignore what come true and ask about what didn't come true.

 As for the wars led by Jesus I was in the armed forces of Egypt during the wars between Egypt and Israel when Mosa Dian was the minister of defense of the armed forces of Israel and Alsadat was president of Egypt. It meant that Alsadat played the role of Almahdi. Can they accept this interpretation?

The same problem appears in Christianity; they believe that the stars will fall on the earth without considering how this match with the other prophecies. So they deny my saying that it came true in the electric lamps which fill the earth and made its nights full of falling stars.

As you see the Spirit shaped the events in certain way different from the general understanding of all people. The Spirit stressed some points and ignored others to make the work keep hidden until the return of Christ.    

   

108- Throne of God

"Sir, can you explain to me," he said, "the meaning of the word Theology which I had heard of from Christians?"

Theology is the Christian' Studies about God. It contains theories about his nature and the nature of his Son and the Holy Spirit. It contains also studies of the prophecies and how they will come true.

"Of course you know that they call Jesus by God," he said. "Are you going to tell me or them that you are God?"

Remember that I was born in Islam which taught us that God couldn't be a human being and he had no sons. Remember also that no invisible authority dictated to me what I should say and all I have is inspiration and silent guidance from the Spirit.

 I faced this question in the beginning of my experience and I went through some ideas until I reached the correct answer. One day I was in the tram and looked through the window. I saw a tag written in Arabic on a shop of Fish as "Asmak Rb". You know that the word Asmak can be taken as named you and Rb means Lord.  It meant for me that I had taken the name Lord as a mere name or title. Later I went to that shop to see more about it. I noticed in another part of the shop the full tag. It was Askmak Rbah.  Rbah as you know is a name for a human. But when the two letters (ah) were taken the meaning seemed as Lord.   

I understood that the Holy Spirit made it to make me be satisfied by the tag he showed me. However, I couldn't accept to call myself by God or Lord at least because I didn't have authority on any thing. I thought, "Maybe this is something to remind me with the incident with Peter when he was on the boat for fishing. Jesus gave him the word and he got lots of fish; so he called Jesus by Lord.

I kept these ideas in mind and continued searching in other points. After months while I was in the Hospital the question appeared again to busy my mind. A weird psychologically patient approached me and insisted that I was God. I wondered of that surprise because he made like the mad man who called Jesus by the Son of God. Jesus ordered him to shut up. However I didn't take his claim seriously. I went on searching other points.

  I noticed that my autobiography brought to me some ancient holy stories of the Bible in a simple way. The matter seemed as if an invisible producer and director managed to make my life imitate many holy stories as happened in the past history. For example: When I was a boy of eleven years old I quarreled with another and throw him in a little canal near us. This incident was to bring to me the memory of the events of Moses with the Pharaoh who sank in the water of the red sea.  In that story my role was mysterious to me until I noticed another event from the same period.

In the primary school the teacher of Drawing asked the students: "Who has the hobby of drawing?" And I raised my finger to reply, (I am). You know that the verb of hobby in Arabic is the same word Yahweh.   But in the bible Yahweh is the name of God as told to Moses when he asked. Islam doesn't have this knowledge. I didn't even know the name of the Lord of Jews Yahweh before reading the Bible.  The story or say the reactions point to that I had played the role of Yahweh from behind the veil to the humans.  Of course this was weird knowledge to me. But by contemplating in different stories I found out that most of them put me in the position of God in the ancient world.  The ascension of Jesus alive to heaven and his disappearance made the picture clearer. It meant to me that the world has a human being that can live invisible and gets his human birth from time to another.  

It became clear that the invisible Yahweh incarnated as Jesus and the invisible Jesus incarnated this age as me Abdo. When we contemplate in the manners of Yahweh and Jesus we see great difference between both of them and we should ask why? The authority is different and the task is different. So those who stuck to the authority of Yahweh who worked for the Jews only refused Jesus who had different authority and worked for all humankind. The same idea is applied to the difference between the authority of Jesus and Abdo this age. Abdo is not like Yahweh or Jesus in the authority and this is a mystery I was to solve.

When you inspect the books of the bible searching for the prophecies which came true in Jesus you can find the source of every thing about Jesus. You can find how the holy words tell about the descending of God to live with people and save them. However you can see that many prophecies didn't come true in the time of Jesus as a process of selection. Some prophecies came true and others were postponed to the second coming of Jesus. 

After knowing the prophecies given in the Quran I knew the form which the Spirit chose to me. Jesus in the Quran is the Slave of God. That's why my birth name this age contains two parts Abd and Alwahab; it means slave of God whose name is Alwahab. So instead of the previous name which means God is our salvation or instead of Emanuel which means God is with us I was given the name Slave or Servant of God. That change is very important in doing my holy task. There is separation between me and the authority of God who is interested in repaying. However the sum total of my free word and the authority of God is more powerful than any power in the world

"Do you say you are stronger than America?" he asked. "If so why don't you ask God to destroy Israel?"

"You don't understand the deep point in the matter," I said. "Israel was born again as a sign for the return of Jesus in accordance with the holy promises given in the Gospels. Believing in another interpretation is the reason of the curse. However if my nation believed me and stood beside my task I would be of great help in making the ever peace. Well let's return to the main point."

There is a verse in Quran tells, "There will be 8 that carry the throne of God in the day of Resurrection." We as Muslims understand that those 8 are angels. However many tried to contemplate in the meaning of that verse and wondered that God who can't be imagined as a being in need of sitting on a throne will be carried by whatever.  Most of them left that verse unable to interpret. But the solution came as follows. The verse is a prophecy that came true around me in the following way.

After I finished the high school I joined the Military Technical College, Push number 8 and I graduated belonging to it as a first Lieutenant. By this I started to earn my life by working in the Naval Forces. After finding a bride the problem of getting a flat faced us because it was difficult. One day my father found out a suitable flat for me and we rented it. The surprise is that it is with number 8 in Janaklis which can be taken as (Came like a thief). This expression is familiar in the Gospels. So the throne appeared to be the two most important aspects in the life of man, the work and the place of living.

John in his Revelation saw God on his throne and saw Jesus with him. This idea behaved as a prophecy; it came true when John reincarnated as President Mubarak and sat on the throne of Egypt 1982. He lived in great palace and I came to live in his country in a flat facing a palace from the front and the back. So you see how the holy words do destines. The wonder is that I lived in a house owned by a man called Abu Alaa which is the same name of President Mubarak.  

  

107- Quran Tells Future

"Sir, you said before that angel Gabriel was Jesus in the time of Mohammed (PBUH) and he was his heavenly master. Did Gabriel lied to Mohammed about Jesus? The matter is very dangerous.  I don't believe that you wanted to say that Islam was false religion," he asked.

In the beginning of my experience I thought wrongly that the Quran was authorized by a man that built it on rumors and self thinking. It made me concentrate on studying the Bible as the book of facts. But later I was led to get a book full of Talks of Mohammed. When I read it I wondered greatly that many prophecies told by Mohammed came true in me and in the world. However I was in great bewilderment that the prophecies spoke of a false Christ that must come before the coming of Jesus. When I read about the description of the false Christ in the Talks (Hadiths) that he would be one eyed I felt pleased that it wasn't applied to me.  But the problem of the coming of false Christ before the coming of Jesus kept as a problem for me for a while.

In the gospels there is warning of the anti Christ or false prophets. But there are no signs in their bodies or shapes. That seemed as advantage for those who wanted to claim to be Christ. But Islam gives detailed description of the false Christ.  Mohammed spoke of thirty false Christs the last one is the one eyed.  However I didn't like to seem to people as the false Christ.

I kept for months thinking of that problem. For my astonishment the chances made me unusually see many one eyed people on the roads and public means of transportations. That bewilderment finished after getting a book titled by The Words, for the famous philosopher Jan Paul Sartre.  It was like an autobiography translated to Arabic from French. In his book he explained how he became one-eyed and how the existentialism became the task of his life. He even spoke of himself as a liar. He was an international famous philosopher that affected the culture of the people of the world in every country and his effects remained even after his death. The World' Wars pushed many to follow him.

According to Islam the chief false Christ is one eyed and works against God. He has no children and belongs to the Jews. He uses magic to perform miracles. Sartre said, "I worshipped the magic in Cinema."  

It meant to me that the false Christ came true according to a prophecy in Islam and Islam is a true religion. Jesus said, Elijah already came but you didn't know. The same is applied to the False Christ Sartre.

        I was to research why the Quran tells about Jesus, "They didn't crucify him and they didn't kill him, but he was made seem so."  The first idea that occurred to me was that God had known that Jesus would get his birth in Islam and saw that it would be better for Jesus to discover the truth unaffected by the known knowledge. So I don't tell that Jesus was crucified from the known knowledge but from analyzing the actions in my present life as shown before.

It seemed to me that it was impossible for a man born in Christianity to speak about the actions like I did without being accused that it came from his sub consciousness as grown up in Christianity.  So it was necessary for me to be born in any religion rather than Christianity. It was like testing a pupil by showing him the wrong and right to choose the correct only.

The second idea was that the verse about Jesus was not given to tell the past but it was given to shape the future in the return of Jesus. So it means that when Jesus returns people won't crucify or kill him, but others will be killed instead of him if he deserves to be killed or crucified. That is going according to the heavenly Justice.  The Quran in many stories about the past holy history added some different knowledge about the future.

You will see in my manuscript how a prophecy told by an ancient Chinese master called Schwangtsi came true in me. He dreamt he was a butterfly and prophesied that a master would come after many generations and interprets its meaning. It came true in me.  

106 - The Memory of Lashing

During the period of having sensitivity I suffered the stings in my body accompanied with red spots and human faces. I wondered that the stings were severe in the middle of my two hands. It meant to me that Jesus was crucified. I wanted to understand the meaning of the stings all over my body but I couldn't. Later after months and after gaining the Kundalini I realized that these stings brought to me the memory of being lashed by the soldiers.

"What's the Kundalini Sir?" he asked.

"The books of Yoga mentions a branch of Yoga called the Kundalini Yoga.  It tells that the body contains seven centers connected with the backbone. There is stored power in the bottom of the backbone. When this power of Kundalini awakes it passes in the backbone and hits a center after another until it reaches the crown center at the top of the head and makes man connect with Universal Spirit and get visions. Someone said, "The Kundalini Rise for once might help man to discover something great and makes him a great scientist."

I realized later that this saying is true. I got the rise of Kundalini countless times and I discovered things that no man knew.  It deserves to mention that in a period later I was busy to research the famous names in the world that are connected with my present story and I found out that the Kundalini rise was among the famous names. Such knowledge like many others always came to me in the due time to be sure of my identity.

"Did this Kundalini give you the same power of Jesus?" he asked.

"In the beginning of my experience I was longing for acquiring the same powers of Jesus to prove my task. But when I understood that the nature of the task of Jesus led to the nature of my task in accordance with heavenly Justice my bewilderment finished. Jesus served people and saved them by sacrificing his life for them; now according to Justice the reverse should be. They should return the service to him in me as his reincarnation, because man is an eternal spirit in temporary bodies.   

The searching for the relation between my past and present actions was one aspect in the process of proving my identity as reincarnated Jesus. Show me any action of Jesus in the gospel and I show you its reaction in the present.  The next aspect in the proof which I found out was the fulfillment of the holy prophecies in my present life. Some prophecies which came true in the time of Jesus came true again in me by another way.  

In the gospel of Mathew you can read how Jesus was born and lived according to previous prophecies in the Old Testament. This idea is not stressed in Islam. So when I read it for the first time I wondered. The matter seemed to me as if Jesus' life went on according to a pre destined program made of prophecies.  Jesus was born from a virgin because a prophecy in Isaiah said so and he came to live in Nasserite according to a prophecy too. And he was to escape to Egypt because the prophecy said, From Egypt I called my Son.

I wondered that the same prophecies are applied to me this age in another way.  I was born in Egypt; when the Nasserine Revolution rose all Egyptians were called Nasserians.  More over when I joined the high school its name was changed to be Nasserine School. These things made my understanding for the fulfillment of prophecies elastic. When you read the prophecy of the birth from a virgin you find out that it tells that they would name her son by Emanuel. In reality they didn't name him Emanuel but they named him Yasua (Jesus).  The meaning of the name Emanuel is God is with us; this meaning appeared later when Jesus showed the authority of God in his deeds and words.

These remarks were very important to me because I had to gather all the prophecies applied to me this age and study them. I wrote a chapter on the characteristics of the prophecies in coming true. The problem of the people of this world is that they keep by heart one explanation for the prophecies disregarding the idea that any prophecy can come true by different ways.

Let me show you how I got my present name from the word of God in the gospel. Let's get the Bible, here it is. In the Letter to Hebrew chapter 7:1 you read, "This Melchi Sadek was King of Salem and a priest of the Most High God."  Here you notice that my name as Abdo Sadek Salem seems in mysterious relation with that holy statement. However in English they translated the name as Melchizedek joining the surname Melchi to Sadek and put letter z instead of S. However the Arabic Bible translates it correctly.

Now let's read the lines before that statement to see clearly its meaning. In Chapter 6:20 you read, "On our behalf Jesus has gone in there before us and has become a high priest for ever in the line of succession to Melchi Sadek."

Sure you notice that my name as Abdo is in the line of succession to Sadek. The whole saying is about Jesus who went to heaven and became in there like Melchi Sadek who had met Abraham. No more explanation to this point so that it bewildered many scholars. However it shows that the verse behaved as a prophecy and it came true in me. You might say it is a coincidence. But there are two other points related to it applied to me too.

In chapter 7:3 you read, "There is no record of Melchi Sadek's father or mother or of any of his ancestors."  This statement behaved as a prophecy and came true in me. I was given a name of father different than the written name of my father. So when you search for my father's name as Sadek in the records you don't find it. The same is applied to my mother. There is no record for both of them to get the ancestors.

In chapter 7:3 you read, "He is like the Son of God; he remains a priest for ever." Notice that the verb remains is in the present. You might wonder as a Muslim that there are strange titles like Son of God or Priest of the Most High God as we don't use them in Islam. For me I didn't stop at the titles because I believed in the evolution of religions and its expressions.  However you can't think of the coincidence after all that.

105- The Stage Preparation

It seemed to me that there was no difference between the theory of the Spirit and the Collective Mind. So I tried to add a new chapter to my manuscript Survival Call to add my viewpoint that I am necessary to the society as selected by the Collective Mind. After writing a few papers I stretched on my bed to get some rest. Suddenly I heard a voice in my inner ears as coming from earphones, "Peace upon You Abdel Wahab!"  I paid attention to listen to more instructions. But I got nothing by the voice. I stood up annoyed, "Why do you call me Abdel Wahab after you insisted with me that I am Christ?" I got no answer in voice but I got the idea that I should read the gospel before writing any thing.

When I read the gospel of Matthew I wondered that the start of my events at dawn was imitating the end of the story of Christ in some how. The stab in the heart, the great pain, the inability to move to the right or left side and the loss of breath or the feeling of death and the shouting for God contrary to my previous ideas were some events that had some similarity with the events of Christ on the cross such as the stab in his side, the pain and the shouting for God and the inability to move on the cross.

 Jesus spoke of his destination early before being crucified by pointing to the miracle of Jonah.

"Sir, we know from the Quran which is the word of God that Jesus was not crucified but you speak like Christians saying he was crucified.  We know in Islam that God raised Jesus to him in heaven and put Judas Iscariot in his place on the cross. If you tried to show that your events were imitations to the events of the cross it would be the events happened to Judas Iscariot," my friend said.

"In that period I was in the beginning of trying to understand my own events not considering any other religion," I said. "Later I was to go through the Islamic sayings and I knew better than Muslims do. So let's go on gradually without jumping over the real events and I will show you all that bewildered you," I replied and continued.

It seemed to me that the stage were prepared for me that in the Jonah hospital I was met by the miracle of rising by having the name of my companion Rising In Peace after three days. Also the companion of the Twelve reminds with the twelve disciples of Jesus Christ. The hitting of a soldier reminds by the soldiers who hit Jesus. So it seemed to me all previous events were to remind me by the events of Jesus. But the event of the soldier reminds with the opposite. I was to think why this event was reversed.

Jesus spoke of the Tree of Fig and its memory came by going to the Fig Hospital. There I suffered great pain to remember the action of Jesus when he cursed the fig tree and made it dry at once. The reaction was painful so that I kept several months suffering the dried muscle of my right jaw. Jesus made the fig tree dry because he didn't find in it fruits to eat. So my suffering was related to eating. My dentist was called Charity or Righteousness but it seemed he behaved opposite to the meaning of his name. But the doctor whom I was healed by his advice was called Esa (Jesus).  

If I was Judas Iscariot why should I suffer that action of Jesus? Judas didn't curse the fig tree. If you read the Quran well you won't find the name Judas Iscariot. However I will explain to you the idea of the Quran perfectly. Now let's think of the meaning of all that. Some events came to imitate or remind and others came reversed. Assume the Indian belief about the reincarnation is true you can understand that now Jesus was born again or this is the next life of Jesus.  Why I Abdo should suffer the wrong reactions of Jesus' actions?  What is the relation between both of them?

The answer should be that the spirit of Jesus reincarnated as Abdo. One spirit made both bodies one after another. It means that the spirit of man carries his actions before leaving the world then gets new birth by another name in another environment to practice the reactions of previous actions. It means also that Jesus had several roles before his birth as Jesus. That's why he said, "Before Abraham I was." 

I wondered that Jesus spoke of his rising as similar to the rising of the serpent by Moses. Where the similarity is and what did he mean? Of course Jesus didn't point to himself as a serpent. He considered the action of rising or the rising as a verb. Later I could see that the holy verbs of the holy past had a way to embody in the human life. All the holy stories written before the birth of Jesus had its effect in his show.

When you meditate deeply in my events you see how Justice worked. A soldier hit Jesus by a spear in his side and left; no one questioned him and he went home pleased with what he had done. The reverse happened; after I hit a soldier I was released from the hospital and I got out happy that it passed without punishing. But the event of the fig tree was different but I believe it went on according to Justice that the role of Jesus was designed for him to be completely righteous. It was against the righteousness to curse the tree. However that event and the like were helpful in showing the facts of Justice in the theory of reincarnation; every action has a reaction.

Let's continue next session!

104- High Sensitivity

When I became at home I went to the bathroom to have a bath. On my naked body I saw some red points and I guessed that the old fungus (Tinia) returned. I got out to get a smear made by a doctor called Lazar. As soon as I caught the bottle of the smear the notion "I am Christ!" jumped in my mind. To that I said, "No! I have just beaten a soldier in the hospital; Christ can't do that."   After taking the bath I went to the kitchen and ignited the stove to make some tea. While watching the fire the idea of the hell as known in the holy books emerged in my mind. I took the glass of tea and went to my room where I left my manuscript on my office. I looked into it and I was pleased with it.

My wife and children returned from their schools and we spent happy day together. On Friday I was feeling fine and healthy; so I decided not to go to the Fig hospital as recommended before. I decided to go to the Navy College to resume my work. At night I started to feel increasing pain in my right jaw. I couldn't sleep until dawn; I had to take a taxi to go to the hospital. The doctor refused to receive me because I didn't have the official form (Ornic). I told him that I was transformed from Jonah Hospital but he didn't listen to me. I was angry; and I went to the Chief General and he welcomed me and said, "Don't worry I will write you a form to be seen by the doctors of Abdomen, Dentist and Neurologist." I thanked him and greeted him.  

The Abdominal Doctor saw me and said "You have nothing in disorder." The Dentist prescribed a medication for my gum and asked me to return to him at the end of the week to take off my wisdom tooth. The Neurologist said, "Your file has reached us; what happened?" I told him much and he wrote on a paper before him, Paranoid. And then he asked me to stay in his department. I followed his orders and I went with a soldier to my room in another building. There I was alone and the notion "I am Christ!" attacked me many times. I wondered and thought, "Is this from the collective mind of the society which suffers the separation of Christians and Muslims? Or does the spirit of Christ exist contrary to my belief in materialism? Does the Spirit of Christ live and he tries to connect me?"

Assuming that the Spirit of Christ was with me at the moment I directed a difficult question hoping to get a convincing answer. "Why did God create the world? What is its benefit to him?" I paid attention to get an answer.  The only words that came to my mind was, "No one before has got the answer of this question." So I was disappointed.  So I was to research the assumption of The Social Collective Mind. That mind in theory contains all the minds either on the level of consciousness or unconsciousness. Every mind is like a neuron cell in the brain of the living being. This Collective Mind selects the people who fit to lead the masses.  All minds are connected by unseen medium that transfers the ideas among them. I believed in the power of Telepathy among all people at that period.

After spending a weak in the Fig-Hospital I decided to follow the notion I am Christ. I made that decision on the morning of Thursday. Soon I felt pleasure and strength. I thought that the Collective Mind was pleased with me so that it provided me with that healthy state. Immediately I went to the Chief of the Department of Neurology, "Sir, I am very will and I want to leave the hospital to return to my work." The Chief smiled and agreed. Before leaving the hospital I passed by the Dentist and he took off my wisdom tooth.

Next week I started to feel pain in my right jaw.  Its muscle started to be rigid and inelastic. I was unable to eat easily because moving the muscle of the jaw caused pain. I returned to the Dentist in the Fig Hospital. It was another one and he thought there was something wrong in taking off the wisdom tooth. So he dug in the gum ignoring my pain and prescribed an antibiotic. After finishing the antibiotic the muscle returned to its rigidity. So again I was to visit my doctor in the Fig Hospital. He repeated the same procedure and the same antibiotic.

I started to see red spots on my skin. For my surprise I could see human faces drawn in these red spots. These red spots always appeared with a sting in my skin allover my body. But the sting in the middle of my two palms and left leg was severer. I worried and I went to the doctor to explain it. He advised me to stop taking the antibiotic and prescribed for me to take the anti sensitivity.  I asked, "What if the rigidity of the jaw returned?" He replied, "Return to me."

This period of suffering continued for months. One day while I was under the cruel hand of my doctor another doctor came at the door of the clinic. My doctor explained to him my situation in English. The guest doctor said, "Let him put a piece of cotton in the wound to be healed slowly." By this the mercy started. In a few days the wound was healed and I had no need to complain of my jaw.

"Let's continue next meeting," I said to my friend.

"Until now I couldn't …" My friend the Imam said.

"I know, be patient," I said. 

103- Coming From Death

In this new session I managed to narrate my start to my friend. I always call this start the Central Period. I said, "The actions in this Central Period, you as a Muslim can't feel it, because the story told by Quran about Jesus is different and lacks the details."

"Please leave the estimation to me," he said.

"I was in difficult mood after my mind settled on that life goes on without purpose or meaning. There is no afterlife or end judgment. As I had a theory about the wish and will I planted the wish of death in my mind believing it would come in the due time. But I thought it would be better to write my mind to leave it to my children. Soon I got papers and under the title Survival Call I started to write. I was in a hurry lest the death I wished of should come before finishing my task. My writing was full of words against God denying his existence. I urged people to stop calling God and to focus on believing on sciences and the rational thinking. This effort took about a year of writing every day.

"One night I finished a manuscript of more than 600 pages. I was very happy of it and lost my wish of death. I changed my mind about my wish of death. On the contrary I wished to live long to see my society able to publish it and read it to advance with my new ideas. I put it on my desk and went to sleep hoping of fulfilling my new wish. 

"At dawn I awoke feeling I was stabbed strongly with a sword in my heart. I felt great pain and my mind was in bewilderment of the source of it. The pain increased and became unbearable. I tried to change my position on my bed but the increase of pain prevented me from it. I kept lying on my back. I lost my breath and I was suffering the real death. Something inside urged me to call the Lord God. But what I wrote in my book prevented me from it thinking that it was nonsense to call the illusion.

"After a while it seemed that I fainted and I came out of it knowing that I had just cried loudly for the Lord God. I restored my lost breath and became able to move freely. I sat on my bed and turned on the light. The pain became bearable. My wife who was sleeping in the far room awoke and came to me. She heard my loud cry to the Lord God. I told her what happened and asked her to call my neighbor Mr. Successor to carry me with his car to Jonah Hospital of the Navy.

At the Jonah hospital the doctor put me in the intensive care room, and ordered me to put the mask of Oxygen. Soon the pain increased and the doctor wondered.  So he ordered me to be kept in the hospital to be seen by the chief of the department of the heart. From the first day I was to take some kind of bills. When the chief doctor saw me he gave orders to the assistant nurse to get the chart of my heart and other analysis.

I slept early in the night but I awoke at dawn with slight pain in the heart like before. After it vanished I returned to sleep again. This slight pain kept going on in the following two dawns.  In the third morning I got up on a noise in the department and I knew that two patients from the Navy were put in the next room. After an hour or more I got out of my room to visit them. They welcomed me to sit with them and I introduced myself to them. The first in introducing himself said,

"I am Rising in Peace. I made hard effort in the funeral of my father and got painful heart attack."

"Sorry!" I said and I looked at the other patient, "What is his situation?"

"He suffers disorder in his Twelfth (Part of the intestine)," he answered.

At this moment I distracted and my mind told me, I am the Messiah (Christ).  I wondered and returned back to my fellows. We continue the chat about the publishing and other things and then I left. At my room I thought again of that wondrous notion but I couldn't know its source. The matter seemed as if we were words in one phrase; Rising in Peace, Twelve disciples and Christ.

On the morning of Thursday the nurse said, "Your heart was found good and the doctor directs you to go to the department of Neurology in the Fig Hospital of the Navy. Your file will be transferred to it."

I understood that my case was difficult and I got down stairs to discuss it with my doctor. Alas the chief was not in his office and I met a newly graduated doctor there. I discussed with him openly but a soldier on hearing part of my sayings was incited and lost his polite and started to throw accusation of atheism toward me in going and returning. He repeated saying, the atheist will be thrown in the fire of hell.

I asked the doctor to stop the soldier but he didn't obey the doctor. I lost my control and hit him with a strong blow. The soldier fell down fainted; people crowded around us. Some were around the soldier and others were around me, "Come down! Come down!" and brought me a glass of water to drink. I was repeating the words, "He is ignorant and he is against the progress of our nation!"

I was led to the general of the hospital who blamed me and asked the colonel to see my file. The general said, "Deliver your self to the department of Neurology in the Fig Hospital."  I was happy it passed and left the hospital after greeting my fellows with peace. I took a taxi to my home to reach quickly. This is the start which seemed like the terminal of long thread.

"But all this doesn't help me to believe you are Christ," Muslim Imam said. "Please show me what you saw in these events."

"Okay, let's continue tomorrow," I said.