It seemed to me that there was no difference between the theory of the Spirit and the Collective Mind. So I tried to add a new chapter to my manuscript Survival Call to add my viewpoint that I am necessary to the society as selected by the Collective Mind. After writing a few papers I stretched on my bed to get some rest. Suddenly I heard a voice in my inner ears as coming from earphones, "Peace upon You Abdel Wahab!" I paid attention to listen to more instructions. But I got nothing by the voice. I stood up annoyed, "Why do you call me Abdel Wahab after you insisted with me that I am Christ?" I got no answer in voice but I got the idea that I should read the gospel before writing any thing.
When I read the gospel of Matthew I wondered that the start of my events at dawn was imitating the end of the story of Christ in some how. The stab in the heart, the great pain, the inability to move to the right or left side and the loss of breath or the feeling of death and the shouting for God contrary to my previous ideas were some events that had some similarity with the events of Christ on the cross such as the stab in his side, the pain and the shouting for God and the inability to move on the cross.
Jesus spoke of his destination early before being crucified by pointing to the miracle of Jonah.
"Sir, we know from the Quran which is the word of God that Jesus was not crucified but you speak like Christians saying he was crucified. We know in Islam that God raised Jesus to him in heaven and put Judas Iscariot in his place on the cross. If you tried to show that your events were imitations to the events of the cross it would be the events happened to Judas Iscariot," my friend said.
"In that period I was in the beginning of trying to understand my own events not considering any other religion," I said. "Later I was to go through the Islamic sayings and I knew better than Muslims do. So let's go on gradually without jumping over the real events and I will show you all that bewildered you," I replied and continued.
It seemed to me that the stage were prepared for me that in the Jonah hospital I was met by the miracle of rising by having the name of my companion Rising In Peace after three days. Also the companion of the Twelve reminds with the twelve disciples of Jesus Christ. The hitting of a soldier reminds by the soldiers who hit Jesus. So it seemed to me all previous events were to remind me by the events of Jesus. But the event of the soldier reminds with the opposite. I was to think why this event was reversed.
Jesus spoke of the Tree of Fig and its memory came by going to the
. There I suffered great pain to
remember the action of Jesus when he cursed the fig tree and made it dry at
once. The reaction was painful so that I kept several months suffering the
dried muscle of my right jaw. Jesus made the fig tree dry because he didn't
find in it fruits to eat. So my suffering was related to eating. My dentist was
called Charity or Righteousness but it seemed he behaved opposite to the
meaning of his name. But the doctor whom I was healed by his advice was called
Esa (Jesus). Fig Hospital
If I was Judas Iscariot why should I suffer that action of Jesus? Judas didn't curse the fig tree. If you read the Quran well you won't find the name Judas Iscariot. However I will explain to you the idea of the Quran perfectly. Now let's think of the meaning of all that. Some events came to imitate or remind and others came reversed. Assume the Indian belief about the reincarnation is true you can understand that now Jesus was born again or this is the next life of Jesus. Why I Abdo should suffer the wrong reactions of Jesus' actions? What is the relation between both of them?
The answer should be that the spirit of Jesus reincarnated as Abdo. One spirit made both bodies one after another. It means that the spirit of man carries his actions before leaving the world then gets new birth by another name in another environment to practice the reactions of previous actions. It means also that Jesus had several roles before his birth as Jesus. That's why he said, "Before Abraham I was."
I wondered that Jesus spoke of his rising as similar to the rising of the serpent by Moses. Where the similarity is and what did he mean? Of course Jesus didn't point to himself as a serpent. He considered the action of rising or the rising as a verb. Later I could see that the holy verbs of the holy past had a way to embody in the human life. All the holy stories written before the birth of Jesus had its effect in his show.
When you meditate deeply in my events you see how Justice worked. A soldier hit Jesus by a spear in his side and left; no one questioned him and he went home pleased with what he had done. The reverse happened; after I hit a soldier I was released from the hospital and I got out happy that it passed without punishing. But the event of the fig tree was different but I believe it went on according to Justice that the role of Jesus was designed for him to be completely righteous. It was against the righteousness to curse the tree. However that event and the like were helpful in showing the facts of Justice in the theory of reincarnation; every action has a reaction.
Let's continue next session!