104- High Sensitivity

When I became at home I went to the bathroom to have a bath. On my naked body I saw some red points and I guessed that the old fungus (Tinia) returned. I got out to get a smear made by a doctor called Lazar. As soon as I caught the bottle of the smear the notion "I am Christ!" jumped in my mind. To that I said, "No! I have just beaten a soldier in the hospital; Christ can't do that."   After taking the bath I went to the kitchen and ignited the stove to make some tea. While watching the fire the idea of the hell as known in the holy books emerged in my mind. I took the glass of tea and went to my room where I left my manuscript on my office. I looked into it and I was pleased with it.

My wife and children returned from their schools and we spent happy day together. On Friday I was feeling fine and healthy; so I decided not to go to the Fig hospital as recommended before. I decided to go to the Navy College to resume my work. At night I started to feel increasing pain in my right jaw. I couldn't sleep until dawn; I had to take a taxi to go to the hospital. The doctor refused to receive me because I didn't have the official form (Ornic). I told him that I was transformed from Jonah Hospital but he didn't listen to me. I was angry; and I went to the Chief General and he welcomed me and said, "Don't worry I will write you a form to be seen by the doctors of Abdomen, Dentist and Neurologist." I thanked him and greeted him.  

The Abdominal Doctor saw me and said "You have nothing in disorder." The Dentist prescribed a medication for my gum and asked me to return to him at the end of the week to take off my wisdom tooth. The Neurologist said, "Your file has reached us; what happened?" I told him much and he wrote on a paper before him, Paranoid. And then he asked me to stay in his department. I followed his orders and I went with a soldier to my room in another building. There I was alone and the notion "I am Christ!" attacked me many times. I wondered and thought, "Is this from the collective mind of the society which suffers the separation of Christians and Muslims? Or does the spirit of Christ exist contrary to my belief in materialism? Does the Spirit of Christ live and he tries to connect me?"

Assuming that the Spirit of Christ was with me at the moment I directed a difficult question hoping to get a convincing answer. "Why did God create the world? What is its benefit to him?" I paid attention to get an answer.  The only words that came to my mind was, "No one before has got the answer of this question." So I was disappointed.  So I was to research the assumption of The Social Collective Mind. That mind in theory contains all the minds either on the level of consciousness or unconsciousness. Every mind is like a neuron cell in the brain of the living being. This Collective Mind selects the people who fit to lead the masses.  All minds are connected by unseen medium that transfers the ideas among them. I believed in the power of Telepathy among all people at that period.

After spending a weak in the Fig-Hospital I decided to follow the notion I am Christ. I made that decision on the morning of Thursday. Soon I felt pleasure and strength. I thought that the Collective Mind was pleased with me so that it provided me with that healthy state. Immediately I went to the Chief of the Department of Neurology, "Sir, I am very will and I want to leave the hospital to return to my work." The Chief smiled and agreed. Before leaving the hospital I passed by the Dentist and he took off my wisdom tooth.

Next week I started to feel pain in my right jaw.  Its muscle started to be rigid and inelastic. I was unable to eat easily because moving the muscle of the jaw caused pain. I returned to the Dentist in the Fig Hospital. It was another one and he thought there was something wrong in taking off the wisdom tooth. So he dug in the gum ignoring my pain and prescribed an antibiotic. After finishing the antibiotic the muscle returned to its rigidity. So again I was to visit my doctor in the Fig Hospital. He repeated the same procedure and the same antibiotic.

I started to see red spots on my skin. For my surprise I could see human faces drawn in these red spots. These red spots always appeared with a sting in my skin allover my body. But the sting in the middle of my two palms and left leg was severer. I worried and I went to the doctor to explain it. He advised me to stop taking the antibiotic and prescribed for me to take the anti sensitivity.  I asked, "What if the rigidity of the jaw returned?" He replied, "Return to me."

This period of suffering continued for months. One day while I was under the cruel hand of my doctor another doctor came at the door of the clinic. My doctor explained to him my situation in English. The guest doctor said, "Let him put a piece of cotton in the wound to be healed slowly." By this the mercy started. In a few days the wound was healed and I had no need to complain of my jaw.

"Let's continue next meeting," I said to my friend.

"Until now I couldn't …" My friend the Imam said.

"I know, be patient," I said.