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Sunday, November 26, 2017

105- The Stage Preparation

It seemed to me that there was no difference between the theory of the Spirit and the Collective Mind. So I tried to add a new chapter to my manuscript Survival Call to add my viewpoint that I am necessary to the society as selected by the Collective Mind. After writing a few papers I stretched on my bed to get some rest. Suddenly I heard a voice in my inner ears as coming from earphones, "Peace upon You Abdel Wahab!"  I paid attention to listen to more instructions. But I got nothing by the voice. I stood up annoyed, "Why do you call me Abdel Wahab after you insisted with me that I am Christ?" I got no answer in voice but I got the idea that I should read the gospel before writing any thing.
When I read the gospel of Matthew I wondered that the start of my events at dawn was imitating the end of the story of Christ in some how. The stab in the heart, the great pain, the inability to move to the right or left side and the loss of breath or the feeling of death and the shouting for God contrary to my previous ideas were some events that had some similarity with the events of Christ on the cross such as the stab in his side, the pain and the shouting for God and the inability to move on the cross.
 Jesus spoke of his destination early before being crucified by pointing to the miracle of Jonah.
"Sir, we know from the Quran which is the word of God that Jesus was not crucified but you speak like Christians saying he was crucified.  We know in Islam that God raised Jesus to him in heaven and put Judas Iscariot in his place on the cross. If you tried to show that your events were imitations to the events of the cross it would be the events happened to Judas Iscariot," my friend said.
"In that period I was in the beginning of trying to understand my own events not considering any other religion," I said. "Later I was to go through the Islamic sayings and I knew better than Muslims do. So let's go on gradually without jumping over the real events and I will show you all that bewildered you," I replied and continued.
It seemed to me that the stage were prepared for me that in the Jonah hospital I was met by the miracle of rising by having the name of my companion Rising In Peace after three days. Also the companion of the Twelve reminds with the twelve disciples of Jesus Christ. The hitting of a soldier reminds by the soldiers who hit Jesus. So it seemed to me all previous events were to remind me by the events of Jesus. But the event of the soldier reminds with the opposite. I was to think why this event was reversed.
Jesus spoke of the Tree of Fig and its memory came by going to the Fig Hospital. There I suffered great pain to remember the action of Jesus when he cursed the fig tree and made it dry at once. The reaction was painful so that I kept several months suffering the dried muscle of my right jaw. Jesus made the fig tree dry because he didn't find in it fruits to eat. So my suffering was related to eating. My dentist was called Charity or Righteousness but it seemed he behaved opposite to the meaning of his name. But the doctor whom I was healed by his advice was called Esa (Jesus).  
If I was Judas Iscariot why should I suffer that action of Jesus? Judas didn't curse the fig tree. If you read the Quran well you won't find the name Judas Iscariot. However I will explain to you the idea of the Quran perfectly. Now let's think of the meaning of all that. Some events came to imitate or remind and others came reversed. Assume the Indian belief about the reincarnation is true you can understand that now Jesus was born again or this is the next life of Jesus.  Why I Abdo should suffer the wrong reactions of Jesus' actions?  What is the relation between both of them?
The answer should be that the spirit of Jesus reincarnated as Abdo. One spirit made both bodies one after another. It means that the spirit of man carries his actions before leaving the world then gets new birth by another name in another environment to practice the reactions of previous actions. It means also that Jesus had several roles before his birth as Jesus. That's why he said, "Before Abraham I was." 
I wondered that Jesus spoke of his rising as similar to the rising of the serpent by Moses. Where the similarity is and what did he mean? Of course Jesus didn't point to himself as a serpent. He considered the action of rising or the rising as a verb. Later I could see that the holy verbs of the holy past had a way to embody in the human life. All the holy stories written before the birth of Jesus had its effect in his show.
When you meditate deeply in my events you see how Justice worked. A soldier hit Jesus by a spear in his side and left; no one questioned him and he went home pleased with what he had done. The reverse happened; after I hit a soldier I was released from the hospital and I got out happy that it passed without punishing. But the event of the fig tree was different but I believe it went on according to Justice that the role of Jesus was designed for him to be completely righteous. It was against the righteousness to curse the tree. However that event and the like were helpful in showing the facts of Justice in the theory of reincarnation; every action has a reaction.
Let's continue next session!


Monday, November 20, 2017

104- High Sensitivity

When I became at home I went to the bathroom to have a bath. On my naked body I saw some red points and I guessed that the old fungus (Tinia) returned. I got out to get a smear made by a doctor called Lazar. As soon as I caught the bottle of the smear the notion "I am Christ!" jumped in my mind. To that I said, "No! I have just beaten a soldier in the hospital; Christ can't do that."   After taking the bath I went to the kitchen and ignited the stove to make some tea. While watching the fire the idea of the hell as known in the holy books emerged in my mind. I took the glass of tea and went to my room where I left my manuscript on my office. I looked into it and I was pleased with it.
My wife and children returned from their schools and we spent happy day together. On Friday I was feeling fine and healthy; so I decided not to go to the Fig hospital as recommended before. I decided to go to the Navy College to resume my work. At night I started to feel increasing pain in my right jaw. I couldn't sleep until dawn; I had to take a taxi to go to the hospital. The doctor refused to receive me because I didn't have the official form (Ornic). I told him that I was transformed from Jonah Hospital but he didn't listen to me. I was angry; and I went to the Chief General and he welcomed me and said, "Don't worry I will write you a form to be seen by the doctors of Abdomen, Dentist and Neurologist." I thanked him and greeted him.  
The Abdominal Doctor saw me and said "You have nothing in disorder." The Dentist prescribed a medication for my gum and asked me to return to him at the end of the week to take off my wisdom tooth. The Neurologist said, "Your file has reached us; what happened?" I told him much and he wrote on a paper before him, Paranoid. And then he asked me to stay in his department. I followed his orders and I went with a soldier to my room in another building. There I was alone and the notion "I am Christ!" attacked me many times. I wondered and thought, "Is this from the collective mind of the society which suffers the separation of Christians and Muslims? Or does the spirit of Christ exist contrary to my belief in materialism? Does the Spirit of Christ live and he tries to connect me?"
Assuming that the Spirit of Christ was with me at the moment I directed a difficult question hoping to get a convincing answer. "Why did God create the world? What is its benefit to him?" I paid attention to get an answer.  The only words that came to my mind was, "No one before has got the answer of this question." So I was disappointed.  So I was to research the assumption of The Social Collective Mind. That mind in theory contains all the minds either on the level of consciousness or unconsciousness. Every mind is like a neuron cell in the brain of the living being. This Collective Mind selects the people who fit to lead the masses.  All minds are connected by unseen medium that transfers the ideas among them. I believed in the power of Telepathy among all people at that period.
After spending a weak in the Fig-Hospital I decided to follow the notion I am Christ. I made that decision on the morning of Thursday. Soon I felt pleasure and strength. I thought that the Collective Mind was pleased with me so that it provided me with that healthy state. Immediately I went to the Chief of the Department of Neurology, "Sir, I am very will and I want to leave the hospital to return to my work." The Chief smiled and agreed. Before leaving the hospital I passed by the Dentist and he took off my wisdom tooth.
Next week I started to feel pain in my right jaw.  Its muscle started to be rigid and inelastic. I was unable to eat easily because moving the muscle of the jaw caused pain. I returned to the Dentist in the Fig Hospital. It was another one and he thought there was something wrong in taking off the wisdom tooth. So he dug in the gum ignoring my pain and prescribed an antibiotic. After finishing the antibiotic the muscle returned to its rigidity. So again I was to visit my doctor in the Fig Hospital. He repeated the same procedure and the same antibiotic.
I started to see red spots on my skin. For my surprise I could see human faces drawn in these red spots. These red spots always appeared with a sting in my skin allover my body. But the sting in the middle of my two palms and left leg was severer. I worried and I went to the doctor to explain it. He advised me to stop taking the antibiotic and prescribed for me to take the anti sensitivity.  I asked, "What if the rigidity of the jaw returned?" He replied, "Return to me."
This period of suffering continued for months. One day while I was under the cruel hand of my doctor another doctor came at the door of the clinic. My doctor explained to him my situation in English. The guest doctor said, "Let him put a piece of cotton in the wound to be healed slowly." By this the mercy started. In a few days the wound was healed and I had no need to complain of my jaw.
"Let's continue next meeting," I said to my friend.
"Until now I couldn't …" My friend the Imam said.

"I know, be patient," I said. 

Sunday, October 15, 2017

103- Coming From Death

In this new session I managed to narrate my start to my friend. I always call this start the Central Period. I said, "The actions in this Central Period, you as a Muslim can't feel it, because the story told by Quran about Jesus is different and lacks the details."
"Please leave the estimation to me," he said.
"I was in difficult mood after my mind settled on that life goes on without purpose or meaning. There is no afterlife or end judgment. As I had a theory about the wish and will I planted the wish of death in my mind believing it would come in the due time. But I thought it would be better to write my mind to leave it to my children. Soon I got papers and under the title Survival Call I started to write. I was in a hurry lest the death I wished of should come before finishing my task. My writing was full of words against God denying his existence. I urged people to stop calling God and to focus on believing on sciences and the rational thinking. This effort took about a year of writing every day.
"One night I finished a manuscript of more than 600 pages. I was very happy of it and lost my wish of death. I changed my mind about my wish of death. On the contrary I wished to live long to see my society able to publish it and read it to advance with my new ideas. I put it on my desk and went to sleep hoping of fulfilling my new wish. 
"At dawn I awoke feeling I was stabbed strongly with a sword in my heart. I felt great pain and my mind was in bewilderment of the source of it. The pain increased and became unbearable. I tried to change my position on my bed but the increase of pain prevented me from it. I kept lying on my back. I lost my breath and I was suffering the real death. Something inside urged me to call the Lord God. But what I wrote in my book prevented me from it thinking that it was nonsense to call the illusion.
"After a while it seemed that I fainted and I came out of it knowing that I had just cried loudly for the Lord God. I restored my lost breath and became able to move freely. I sat on my bed and turned on the light. The pain became bearable. My wife who was sleeping in the far room awoke and came to me. She heard my loud cry to the Lord God. I told her what happened and asked her to call my neighbor Mr. Successor to carry me with his car to Jonah Hospital of the Navy.
At the Jonah hospital the doctor put me in the intensive care room, and ordered me to put the mask of Oxygen. Soon the pain increased and the doctor wondered.  So he ordered me to be kept in the hospital to be seen by the chief of the department of the heart. From the first day I was to take some kind of bills. When the chief doctor saw me he gave orders to the assistant nurse to get the chart of my heart and other analysis.
I slept early in the night but I awoke at dawn with slight pain in the heart like before. After it vanished I returned to sleep again. This slight pain kept going on in the following two dawns.  In the third morning I got up on a noise in the department and I knew that two patients from the Navy were put in the next room. After an hour or more I got out of my room to visit them. They welcomed me to sit with them and I introduced myself to them. The first in introducing himself said,
"I am Rising in Peace. I made hard effort in the funeral of my father and got painful heart attack."
"Sorry!" I said and I looked at the other patient, "What is his situation?"
"He suffers disorder in his Twelfth (Part of the intestine)," he answered.
At this moment I distracted and my mind told me, I am the Messiah (Christ).  I wondered and returned back to my fellows. We continue the chat about the publishing and other things and then I left. At my room I thought again of that wondrous notion but I couldn't know its source. The matter seemed as if we were words in one phrase; Rising in Peace, Twelve disciples and Christ.
On the morning of Thursday the nurse said, "Your heart was found good and the doctor directs you to go to the department of Neurology in the Fig Hospital of the Navy. Your file will be transferred to it."
I understood that my case was difficult and I got down stairs to discuss it with my doctor. Alas the chief was not in his office and I met a newly graduated doctor there. I discussed with him openly but a soldier on hearing part of my sayings was incited and lost his polite and started to throw accusation of atheism toward me in going and returning. He repeated saying, the atheist will be thrown in the fire of hell.
I asked the doctor to stop the soldier but he didn't obey the doctor. I lost my control and hit him with a strong blow. The soldier fell down fainted; people crowded around us. Some were around the soldier and others were around me, "Come down! Come down!" and brought me a glass of water to drink. I was repeating the words, "He is ignorant and he is against the progress of our nation!"
I was led to the general of the hospital who blamed me and asked the colonel to see my file. The general said, "Deliver your self to the department of Neurology in the Fig Hospital."  I was happy it passed and left the hospital after greeting my fellows with peace. I took a taxi to my home to reach quickly. This is the start which seemed like the terminal of long thread.
"But all this doesn't help me to believe you are Christ," Muslim Imam said. "Please show me what you saw in these events."
"Okay, let's continue tomorrow," I said.  


Monday, September 18, 2017

102- He Sleeps

In this session he came anxious to know how the matter started; how I believed myself to be Christ. I made coffee and offered it to him, and then I started to speak: "You know what I mean by action; but I think you should know also what I mean by the reaction to the action.
"Suppose someone in his life is stronger than you and hit you causing severe pain to you. This action will be reversed next life so that you will become stronger than him and you might hit him or he will be hit by another person. We call the latter reaction.
"Suppose someone stole something important from you; next life he will be stolen as a reaction to his previous deed. This is the main principle in the theory of reincarnation which states that to every action there is reaction from the same category.
"We here in Muslim and Christian countries deny the reincarnation and we believe that man lives one life then goes to heaven for eternal paradise or eternal hell.  Frankly most people here can't accept any belief from those who worship the cow."
"Yes, add to this there is no evidence for the reincarnation," he said. "And I wonder of you that you take it as a matter of fact."
"I didn't take it as a matter of fact; but I proved it practically," I said. "It was planed by Jesus to make all peoples come along together in the end to establish his promised kingdom allover the globe."
"Please take me to your start or to your proof of reincarnation," he said.
"You are in a hurry," I said. "You don't know we are before a huge miracle. Even the great masters of the Far East didn't proof the reincarnation like I did. No one can prove it except one; because it needs the ascension alive like that of Jesus or Elijah or Enoch.
"This work of Jesus was planned to be the final holy lesson to all the peoples of the globe to show them that they fight each other for nothing. So it was necessary for Jesus to spread his story allover the world to prepare for his second coming. In his second coming it was necessary for him to find a record for his actions in previous life to compare them with the actions of his present life.
"If he was born in a country that didn't have the record of his actions in previous life he wouldn't become able to know his past identity even if he got his past name by inspiration. That's why Jesus looked to some of his actions with others as something memorial. Also he had to make some over reactions with others to appear clear next coming."
My friend slept during my speaking and I had to awaken him. He said," Sorry! I was working hard all day."
"Okay! You can go and wash your face and I will make another coffee," I said. "I told you before, you should read the manuscript."
After he washed his face I offered the coffee and started to explain again what he didn't get and I continued.
"I lived long period as an atheist denying the interference of God in the life of people. As I was born a Muslim I read the Quran and criticized some points of it which made me became sure that it was man made. I believed that God can't make scientific mistakes. I used this as a subject to deal with among fellows in my work as to attract them to my way.
"Oh my friend! You slept again?" I exclaimed and he awoke. "Sorry lets end this session and you can come tomorrow to start fresh."
"Sorry!" he said.
"Okay!"


Sunday, September 3, 2017

101- He Asks About Angel Gabriel

 After about a week, the Muslim Imam visited me and asked,
"I'd like to know how the matter started."
"It is clear that you didn't read the manuscript," I said.
"Sorry, I didn't have time to read it," he said. "I need a push to start. Did angel Gabriel come to you?"
"By this question I know you try to measure my case on Muhammad case. Aren't you?" I said.
"We know that Gabriel is the angel who brings the missions from God to the prophets," he said. "The knowledge about this point is very necessary to know before any thing you want to say."
"This question is a jump in the knowledge which came to me in searching my case," I said. "Angel Gabriel is among the very secrets of the holy process. Neither Christian nor Muslim of any degree knows the secret of the rising of Jesus Christ completely. I wrote the details of it in my manuscript which you got. After the rising of Jesus Christ he became able to get the shape and form he wanted. Angel Gabriel was one of the shapes and forms he used to communicate the missionaries. You know in Islam that Angel Gabriel once appeared to Muhammad among his friends in the form of a man. Do you know the talk about that incident?"
"Yes, I know," he said. "But what is the relation of that to you or Jesus?"
"That man whom Muhammad knew by Gabriel was Jesus Christ," I said.
"But no one among the learned elders of Islam had said what you said" he said.
"This knowledge was not given to any Jew or Christian or Muslim," I said. "It is a special secret for Jesus only to reveal. That's why Jesus said, no one comes to the Father except by me."
"So how the matter started with you?" he asked.
"The matter started with me by the Holy Spirit who put the name of Christ in my mind to start with," I answered. "Then I went through several actions in my life, as I was Muslim I didn't notice its relation with the actions of Jesus except after reading the Gospel."
"I didn't get what you mean by saying actions in relation with the actions of Jesus," he said.
"Any one in his life goes through events and acts," I said. "You set with me now; this is an action; you drink coffee now; this is an action; you discuss with me; this is an action."
"Now I understand what you mean by action," he said. "But I don't understand what do mean by the relation between your actions and the actions of Jesus Christ. Do you mean you became able to heal or resurrect?"
"To heal is an action and to resurrect is another action," I said. "By the way, most Christians asked me to show the same actions of Jesus. They thought that Jesus would come with the same task and they don't understand the idea of the second coming. Really I was like them before getting the new knowledge. My task is to show how man gets justice in practicing his normal life. This is the task of the End Judgment."
"Please explain the relation you saw between your actions and the actions of Jesus," he said.
"In a short period of my life I passed by a short story full of actions," I said. "When I got the gospel and read it I found out that the actions in my short story are in mysterious relation with the last period of Jesus as told in the gospel. I noticed that some actions were reversed and others came as to make me remember. So my mind jumped to the idea known in India about the reincarnation. Every action I made in my previous life has reaction in the present life. By this way man is judged by being punished or rewarded according to the nature of his deeds in his previous life."
"Please show me details to figure out this idea," he said.
"Please let us delay it to next session," I said.
"Okay Esa!" he said.
"I know you call me by Esa as a complement," I said.

He laughed and said," You are very Intelligent." 

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

100-Interview with Muslim Imam

I am going to show you an interview with a Muslim Imam from Alexandria. We met by chance and I was astonished to hear him saying I know you. I asked how and he said, "I was a little boy in your area when you were in the MT College. You didn't take notice of me but I remember very well that my mother always praised you before us and always prayed for us to be like you. The elders of the area made us look at you as a very intelligent youth.
"Now after I became a man I saw you many times in the Café playing Chess. But I was afraid to approach you." I laughed for his last phrase and we had a date to meet at the house of my Family. I said, "I am going to converse with you about a very great subject you can't imagine what it is. He said, can't you give me a hint about it? I said, tomorrow and shook hands in peace."
He came in the exact time after supper. His name is K. A. He succeeded his father, after his death, in being the Imam of a mosque. He also was belonging to the syndicate of writers. He showed his great curiosity to know the subject I promised to tell him about. I said, "Let's make coffee then start." I thought to myself, how to start. I offered the coffee and said, "I had passed with a long experience that I am the Messiah Jesus."
He said," it is the last thing I expected to hear from you. Christ Return is one of the big signs of the end. And none of the signs which must appear before him happened yet. The appearance of the one-eyed false Christ whom Jesus Christ will kill didn't happen yet. This is a direct sign in relation with the coming back of Esa."
"I discovered much in this subject," I said. "The Old Testament, the holy book before Jesus, ends with the promise of God to send Elijah. It means that the Jews were to await the returning back of Elijah as we Muslims and Christians are to await the return of Jesus. But instead of the return of Elijah they saw Jesus. This problem was among the questions of the disciples which they asked Jesus about. They asked shouldn't Elijah come first? Jesus said Elijah had come already but you didn't know."
"What do you mean?" he asked. "And where from did you get that knowledge?"
"This knowledge is in the gospels. And I mean that the problem of the one-eyed false Christ is the same. He had come and did his destined role but people didn't know."
"Who is he?" he asked.
"You wouldn't believe it," I said. "He was an international philosopher known among most cultured people here and in most countries. He led many to hell. I wrote about him in detail in my manuscript. How I was affected by his thoughts in my youth and how I got his book of his autobiography."
"I should read your manuscript," he said. "But I want to know who he is."
"This manuscript is the only copy I have," I said.
"Can I get a photo copy of it?" he asked. 
"Yes you can," I replied. "The one who made the prophecy about the one-eyed false Christ come true is called Jan Paul Sartre."
"The prophecy says Jesus will kill the false Christ. Did you kill Sartre?" he asked.
"You know that Jesus can't kill. But the killing here came true in a way no one can guess. Sartre was a big caller for existentialism which denies the after life and the end judgment. So by proving the after life and the judgment the thoughts of existentialism vanish and die. And by killing of the thoughts of a thinker the thinker is killed. The prophecy came true in that way. However you will find more details about him in my manuscript. And you can obtain his book, The Words, to know more."
"I am surprised! It is the first time for me to know that," he said.
"My subject is new to the world. It is full of surprises. No one knows we are in the Day of Resurrection and all the signs of the hour of the end happened in a way different of all expectations."
"We are in the Day of Resurrection? No, it will be a supernatural day and didn't happen yet because we are still in the material world."
"It is supernatural day for the people of the past because they were to imagine it according to the sayings of the prophets. Every generation was to deliver the same sayings to the next in a long series. But now we are in the generation of realizing all sayings in the material world," I said.   
"I am sorry, I think no one would believe it," he said.

"This is not a subject to get all of it in one session. You must get all details to study and digest to reach my same view point. Let us postpone all to a next session," I said. 

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

99- Interview With Chief Priest

I would like to write about my interview with the Chief Priest of Magma Allah Alkhamseeny, Samuel Mashrky.  In the end of 1981 I picked his book, My Journey to America. When I read it I was very pleased that he connected the return of Jesus with the return of Israel.
He wrote about the talk of Jesus about the signs of his coming and stopped at his saying, "Let the fig-tree teach you a lesson, when its branches become green and tender and it starts putting out leaves, you know that summer is near. In the same way, when you see all these things you will know that the time is near, ready to begin. Remember that all these things will happen before the people now living have all died."
He explained how Israel was symbolized in the OT by the fig-tree and how it was destroyed in 70 AD then it came to life again in 1948. And he added that the generation which saw that sign of the return of Israel won't pass away before seeing the return of Jesus Christ. It will be a very exciting event that will shake the world. Some people gave different numbers of years to interpret the span of the generation. But he thought that the span of generation is about 40 years.
I read all that in his book and I wondered that he was very true because I already was searching how I was Jesus Christ. His writings came in my way as something to confirm me. But I didn't know yet how he could reach that conclusion because I was in the beginning of long study of the bible. I said to myself, "Maybe the man is gifted spiritually and he can recognize me when I meet him."
I took the address from his book and traveled soon to Cairo. I reached at his church in the morning. At the door I saw him coming out. We shook hands with peace and I said, "I have come from Alexandria to discuss with you." "Sorry I am going now to attend the funeral of a member of the church" "I need five minutes only." He then said, "Okay let's get in the church." 
After sitting I reminded him with what he wrote about the connection between the return of Jesus with the return of Israel. He replied, "Many have studied this point and came to the same conclusion." It seemed that the man couldn't recognize me spiritually as Jesus and continued to repeat what he wrote in his book. I couldn't stay longer and I stood and shook his hand. His boy showed his regret that he didn't turn on the recorder and said my master was fluent in this interview. I thanked them and left.  
After a few days I sent him a message disclosing to him that I am the Christ' Return. He returned the message by gifting me a book he had published; it is to defend the lordship of Jesus. He didn't discuss with me directly my proclamation I am Jesus' Return.  I sent him another message to thank him and to tell him not to change what he wrote in his book in next edition.
Sure he didn't conclude that my birth was in 1948 with the birth of Israel. And I needed time to grow to reach the destined fact according to prophecies.
Later on, I understood his problem and the problem of all Christians. Even the chief priest couldn't trust the conclusion which he got by deep study. Christians have some ideas about the coming back of Jesus from heaven in a supernatural way. They fixed these ideas in their minds from different sources and they are unable to accept another although the natural coming I had explained is better for the benefit of all humanity.