67- 144000 Piaster

Before the end of 1980 I was to attend the Military Medical Commission at Cairo. It couldn't happen if the General of the unit ignored me. This time they gave me an officer to accompany me with a letter to the commission. This officer was with the title Giar. He entered the interview before the commission which was consisted of three medical Generals of high ranks. The chief of the commission was unknown to me; on his right hand was another unknown General and on his left was the General of the hospital Alsudany whom I told you before when I was in the hospital.

The chief General of the commission opened a file before him. And the General Alsudany spoke to him in low voice. Soon the chief General asked me,

"What did you do in your unit?" 

         "I did nothing evil or wrong," I replied.  "Ask this fellow officer as a witness whether I did any wrong in the unit."

But the chief General didn't ask my fellow and said,

"You don't know what you did." Then he directed his saying to General Alsudany, "It is a case of Schizophrenia; it is not Paranoia as written here." Then he looked at me,

"You are to choose," he said, "either to be retired or to be kept in the hospital for two years."  I was annoyed to be given such a choice and said,

"I prefer to sleep on the pavement and not live in a hospital for two years."

"Okay put your signature on this page," he said, and offered me a notebook with a page in my name. I signed and left with my fellow. After a month I received the official paper of my retirement.   

I retired on pension, 144 pounds, in the last month of 1980. Later I could understand the result of that event, by contemplating in the several crises which happened in Egypt which followed 1981, such as the fall of the airplane which was carrying the leaders of the armies and the assassination of the President Sadat while celebrating the victory of October, 73 on Israel.

When I read the Revelation to John and met the number 144000 I laughed for it carries a sense of humor. The 144000 men who were saved and should stand with Jesus on the mount of Zion became comparable with the 144000 piaster (Cents) as my pension. Now I started to find enough time to research my subject to find the answers of the difficult questions, that religions appeared as a great puzzle.  Yes I have seen actions in my events comparable with the events of the gospels, but the exact meaning of Jesus sayings in his parables needed help from God to understand clearly. The kingdom of God or heaven is explained in different ideas difficult to grasp. It took several years from me to get it. But the branch of the signs of times was easy to know either in Christianity or Islam.

   

66-My Angel There

I was anxious to know how to use the phenomenon of Kundalini to get the ultimate spiritual power. I felt it in my body as described in some books of Yoga but I didn't feel the ability to do miracles by it. I bought an English book about yoga hoping to find more details about the Kundalini. Alas I found very little which tells, the kundalini Yoga is the Yoga of Masters and it works by a vision.  

My brother in law was living and married to a lady from USA. I sent them a letter to search for a book containing much detail about the Kundalini. After a few days I received a letter not containing any thing about my request.  It contained their words of sympathy toward my status. They dealt with me as if I was ill and wrote, we pray for you.

One day, I got up from my bed very late. I felt very worried to be punished by the commander of my unit. I put on my uniform quickly and got down of my house to get the civil bus. I reached my unit at eleven O'clock and entered the office of the commander to apologize. I found him busy in looking at papers on his desk. I sat down on a chair at the wall of the room and waited for him to pay attention to me.

When he raised his face I said, sorry that I was late. For my surprise he replied, why do you say so? I was seeing you sitting there an hour ago. I said, thank you sir, and went out knowing that he didn't write me absent.  It was a miracle indeed. It seemed that an angel took my shape and form and replaced me there until I came.

In my visions at home I saw different things. Once I saw my self walking inside a sea of Jelly. Once, I saw myself entering a big hall filled with people sitting around a long table. It was clear to my eyes that they were from the active Muslims who use the white dress.

They were waiting for the coming of an important person and always looked at the door of the hall. I walked among them but they couldn't see me. That event happened just after practicing the exercise of out of the body experience. All I did was that I lied on my bed and moved my attention from the feet to the top of the head through the body several times. Then suddenly I saw myself there. However, I couldn't control the destination of my soul. This spiritual body outside me appeared with a tire more condensed than the rest of the body and it seemed hiding the persons behind it like the normal body. But it could float above heads and move smoothly.

65-Old Egyptian Films

I studied how the prophecies of the Bible came true in Jesus in detail to understand my own situation. I tried to deduce the Characteristics of the holy words in coming to be true to understand my case on the same light. I got many remarks and wrote them down. While doing this study I stopped at the prophecy from Isaiah 50:6 which tells,

"I bared my back to those who beat me. I didn't stop them when they insulted me, when they pulled out the hairs of my beard and spat in my face." I noticed that no apostle wrote any thing about "the pulling of the hair of the beard" and I wanted to know the meaning of the missing of that point in coming true in the actual events. Then I noticed that we have a famous actor by the name Tawfik Al Dkn which means the success of the beard. It meant for me that the beard of Jesus succeeded in escaping from the torture of pulling its hair.

The same idea is applied to the Islamic prophecies about the coming back of Jesus. For example the Hadith prophesy tells that Jesus will come down from heaven at the east of Damascus. And another prophecy tells that the Paradise will have a door called Al Ryan.  The memory of both came true in two shops on the Tram Station of my area Bacus. The first shop sells the sweets and the second sells different goods.

Those remarks made me contemplate in every name I met so that I walked every where looking at the names of streets, places, and people. I was surprised when I knew that the main street in which I lived before marriage started by the Bridge of Law as a sign to the Law of commandments in the Bible. A branch of it led to the big house in Palestine Street. On its beginning my cousin have a factory for the under wear as a sign to the story of Adam. My own area at that place was addressed by behind 73 as a sign to the war of October. This long street appears as a revelation you can't understand its signs before it comes true. For example:

Lately, I could detect the events of Egypt in it that there is a big building called the building of Morsi Salam in front of the café of the Hero.  In that street you see the Nasserian School and Mubarak School as signs for the ex-presidents in Egypt. And you can see the back of the Broadcasting Station of the Radio and Television. These things proved to me that I am a being made of the holy words, living in a Makati made of the holy words.

One day I was before the TV watching a film by the comedian actor Ismael Yaseen in which he played the role of two persons looking like each other; the first is rich and called Asim and the second is called Gmeez, which is a fruit looking exactly like the fig. The matter seemed that they had known that the fig is a symbol for the return of Jesus because the name Asim can be derived from the name of Esa or Jesus. The idea is that Jesus appeared as another man after his transform. That new man was a being made of the holy words symbolized by fig. The same idea is applied to the recent situation of the new coming. The difference is that the task is controlled by another part of the holy words interested in repaying.

The story of the film appeared to me as if those artists had known some secrets about the new coming of Jesus connected with the return of Israel. An actress sang a song accusing the audiences that they were stupid unable to understand. It made me follow most films.  The matter appeared as if the Holy Spirit was behind the veil guiding the directors of the films to send me necessary message related to my subject.

64-Golden Ring Vision

I returned to my Naval Unit in Alexandria. My fellow officers received me with pleasure and wanted to know everything. I knew from them that as I had spent 40 days in the hospital I should be seen by the Commission and I would be retired on pension. They were true and that was done in a few months. I didn't care if I stay in the Navy or retire. I always felt that I am in the hand of God and his destiny as stated in the holy prophecies.

After a week of leaving the hospital I recalled my book, Survival Call, and I felt sorry that I burnt it. It seemed that the atmosphere in the hospital and the cruel pills affected my nature. I tried to write again from the memory and at the end I could obtain about 60 pages of the 600 pages.  

Sometimes I was like a student under the supervision of the Holy Spirit to get a doctorate by guiding me to understand the phenomena which I met.  Sometimes I was like a man that had lost his memory and the Holy Spirit behaved like a doctor to enable me to restore the lost memory by showing me necessary events from around me. Sometimes I was like an actor under the guidance of unseen Director. 

One day I was bewildered of the meaning of the word "Skaka" in a prophecy by Isaiah in the Arabic Bible. Next day I was guided by the Spirit and bought a magazine made by UNESCO. I found in it the whole prophecy, "At the end of days they will hammer their swords into Slka" As the Arabic word Slka means Wire my bewilderment finished. It was a surprise for me to feel the long hand of the Holy Spirit. The matter appeared as if He felt my bewilderment about a biblical word and managed to reveal it in UNESCO' Magazine in Geneva for me.

That event made me pay attention to the events of the whole world. Later on, after years, I got the English Bible and understood that Skaka in the Arabic Bible is correct and it means the blade of the plough which the farmer uses in planting. "At the end of days the nations will hammer their swords into ploughs." So I knew that the mistake was made on purpose as temporary.

One day, I saw a mysterious vision; I saw a big golden ring filling the inner screen of the closed eyes and there were two tiny stars inside it. I thought it might represent the first cell with divided nucleus. But next day while I was walking I saw a book about the stars at the tram station and I bought it. While reading I saw a circular galaxy with two tiny stars similar to the big golden ring I had seen before in the closed eye. The name of that galaxy is r-r Alsiliak.

My imagination went very far to interpret my vision so that I believed that my spirit had come from inside that galaxy. I concentrated again and I got the golden ring again. It came that time filled with a big Golden Star. And after a while the big Star dissolved and was replaced by a human face which lasted a second and dissolved to let the Big Star appear again. In the same manner I received countless human faces. I had the impression that the chain of faces which I saw was historical persons.

Later on, I heard of the famous General of Sudan who was called Sware Al zahab which means the Golden Ring. He made a revolution against the system of governing in Sudan. As the Golden Ring is something used for marriage, it seemed that the Holy Spirit used it to make me pay attention to the ancient description about the marriage of Heaven with earth, or that Jesus is the groom of peace sent by Heaven to the Earth.  

I noticed that there was relation between my subject and the famous names all over the world. There was a famous player of football called Al Khateeb which means the Betrothed. There was a famous artist by the name which means the waves as a sign to the waves of light I described before. There was a famous name which means light etc.

  

63- Burning Book of Troubles

I thought that I could convince the General that I was not ill, in the interview. But he might think that I was an atheist like many cultured people in the society. I felt also that he was a noble respected man. They told me his weird name which can be translated to the Sudan President. And my mind recalled the visit of the President of Sudan Nomeery to my College when I was in the fourth year.

Next day while I was sitting with others in the garden the soldier sitting with us said,

"Your book is the reason of all your troubles."

"I belief you are right," I said.

"Why don't you burn it right now," the soldier said.

"Good idea," I said. "I will bring it from my room."

I hurried to my room and carried the book and returned to the group. I then shouted for the others walking near us to come. When they crowded around me I said,

"Stand in a circle around this hole in the ground; we are going to burn this book."

I handled the book to the soldier who put it in the little hole and ignited it. We kept watching the fire for a while shouting, God is Bigger, God is Bigger. At once an idea came to my mind to use the method of Jesus when he went every where in Israel saying, "Repent for the kingdom of God is about to come." I borrowed the same method and said to the group, "Shake my hand and say to me, 'Congratulation they will release you soon.' "

More than ten did so with broad smile and I was very happy. Paying the burnt book a last look I asked them to excuse me to go to the General. I knocked the door of his office and I entered. He raised his head,

"What do you want?"

"Sir, if it is necessary for me to say I am ill I will do it," I said.

"Are you going to take us on the level of our minds?" he asked.

"Sorry sir, I don't mean that. But I want to leave the hospital and return to my family. I feel I am going to be crazy. I have burnt the book the reason of all my troubles."

"Okay!" he said. "On Thursday after tomorrow go out from the hospital and return to your unit."

"Thank you sir," I said. I saluted him and went out of his office very happy. I hurried to my companions and thanked them. I said,

"Thank you, we have succeeded. The General released me. I will miss you my friends. I will finish here on Thursday."

"Congratulation!" they said. Later I noticed that the word Congratulation in Arabic is the same word Mubarak or Blessed. 

62-Interview

One day afternoon the nurse came to me,

"The General wants to see you."

"Where?" I asked.

"At his office," she answered and left. I left my bed and looked at my partner,

"Why does the general want to see me?

"Don't worry," he answered. "He usually summons the patients to speak with them to watch their progress under therapy."                                                                                                                      

Going out of my room I saw the General sitting on a chair in front of his office and my doctor, who had received me when I entered the hospital, was standing beside him. I noticed that there was an empty chair before them. I saluted the General and he raised his hand partially to reply the salutation and asked me to sit down. I sat down before him. My doctor bent down to reach the ear of the General to whisper something to him. I heard clearly what he said. "They brought him accompanied with a soldier." The matter appeared to me as if I was fallen in a plot when they made me be delivered to the hospital by a soldier, that the officer should be accompanied by an officer not a soldier.

The General asked me about my name and unit, and then he said,

"Tell me about yourself."

"Sir, I spent long time in searching for the truth of our existence," I said. "Sure I am not ill. I put my entire mind in the book I had delivered to you the other week." When I saw the General not looking at me as if not paying attention to my sayings I stopped. He looked at me.

"Why did you stop?

"Sir, you are not with me," I answered.

"Continue! Don't give care to where I look," he said. "I hear you. Continue." 

"I read in all fields of life. I even read Psychology and Physiology. I came to the conclusion that the human takes his morals from his environment and his behavior comes from the chemicals of his body which he inherits from his ancestors. So I concluded that there is no afterlife or end judgment. A fair God can not punish a man for something he has no choice in it.  My book, which I named by Survival Call, contains a lot of details to prove that point scientifically. This age is the age of science and people should concentrate on science discoveries and live with the truth. They should not waste their time in thinking of something untrue. "

The General said, "Okay! You can go." And I stopped speaking. I stood up and saluted him and walked a few steps, and then I returned. He looked at me. I said,

"Sir, Can I restore my book?"

"Okay, go inside and take it from my office," he answered. I went inside and took the book. I thanked God that the General didn't keep me long. If he let me continue I would come to the point of the inspiration I am Christ, which made me correct my belief. 

61- Son of God

I was still in the period of searching the details of my new experience and I was filled with the hope to be equipped with the power of Jesus as known before. I thought of the meaning of those pictures. In the next weekend I traveled to my home in Alexandria and knew that my wife had met my mother and sister at the market; and she told them about going to the hospital in Cairo. They felt worried and I received their worries as golden pictures. It seemed that their emotion of worries was kept in another dimension waiting for me to receive them. The other two pictures proved to me that my walk to any place was predestined by a Higher Authority. So my walking in the desert as a dangerous place was predestined either I saw the path or not.  

I took the Bible with me to go and sit in the garden. I passed by a man sitting on a rocky chair and greeted him, Peace! He didn't reply and I excused him because I had known that he was a patient of depression. He never spoke to anyone in the group and always kept alone. I moved on and chose a secular place to sit and read. After a while a patient came running toward me from afar, from the direction of the department of dangerous patients. I felt tensed knowing that he was coming to me but I didn't know his intention. I kept calm and soon he reached at my place and sat down on the ground before me without a word. He kept silent for a while and I did the same. I put my hand on my hair and he imitated me by doing the same. I caught my nose and he caught his nose. I shook my leg and he shook his leg. I wondered of that case which I had never seen before.  I managed to keep sitting without motion and he did the same. The weird silence became the master of the situation.  The minutes passed very heavy. Then suddenly he said,

"You are God, isn't it?"

"Yes," I answered believing that I should not object him to keep him calm. One doesn't know the reaction of the dangerous patients.

"You are God and you are sitting on the throne, isn't it so?" he asked.

"Yes," I answered.

"And we are now in the paradise and these are the trees of the paradise," he said.

"Yes it is," I said.

"You can say be and it be?" he asked.

"Yes," I answered and listened carefully to his complaint and I could hardly understand that he loved his cousin girl but her family refused this marriage and now he wanted me as God to do his wish. I comforted him and promised him to fulfill his wish. Soon he returned to his silence.

I stretched my arm to make my hand become very near to his body. Soon I felt that there was a current of tinny particles moving inside my arm through my hand to him. I wondered of that and hoped for him to be healed. After a while a nurse from his department appeared from afar and shouted for him to go to her. He stood up and went running to her. I didn't know if he was healed or not. But I was happy that it passed peacefully.

This experience was stored in my mind and appeared later when I read a book for a Christian who wrote: If Jesus was not God he would be the greatest liar in the world. His expression was very sharp and I was to solve the puzzle. As I knew Islam the solution seemed difficult because Muslims couldn't accept God in the human shape. The history brought to us the story of the Sufi Al Halaj who was crucified because he said: There is nothing inside my body except God.