77- Spiritualizing The Lust

Let's explain something in this age which I call spiritualizing the instincts and lust. The slogan of the snake which is drawn as a circle that his head is biting his tail has a deep meaning. It represents the situation of people in every age. Every new movement made by God starts and increases gathering a remarkable number of people leaving behind the people who refuse it. With time passing the wheel of Justice makes the people who started the movement reincarnate in leading situation. Then the people who were left behind reincarnate to follow what they refused before and become the tail of the historical movements. The people who represent the head come to a new way of living different from their old living. The reincarnated spirits don't like to repeat the same old living. That often creates disagreement and fight between them.

Quran expressed this case in the verse, "You denied it so you will be committed to it."  So the people who started Christianity as the head returned to ignore it either by being in another religion or by getting a leading position in it as a wage. The same is applied to Islam, Judaism, Hinduism, and Buddhism etc. In this age the rule seemed very dangerous because of the increase of the number of people and the sharp difference between the activities of the head and tail. The instructions which the tail carries from the past are hated from the head that likes to go with new instructions which collides with the old instructions. It is clear that the old life is enemy to the new life. The saint who reincarnates as a king forgetting his past totally hates to live as a saint again. The king and saint are different totally in the nature of their life.  

As the new life became working according to the promises given in the holy books it seems natural to its people. The TV which came from the promise that all eyes will see Jesus Christ in his return became an essential thing in the life of people. In the beginning when this TV appeared the leaders of religions attacked it and advised people to ignore it thinking it comes from the Devil to make the believers spend their time far from the prayers and the religious studies. The truth is that the TV came as a solution from the Holy Spirit to solve difficult puzzles in the Holy Books. These puzzles lie in many verses and prophecies as wishes from the believers to be realized by God.

Let's see what the TV realized from these prophecies. It made most people sit at it long hours; it was the necessary tool to await the return of Jesus on the screen which looks like the sky. The puzzle of the promised meeting with Jesus on air, as Paul prophesied is to be done on the screen of TV. Notice that in the beginning of inventing the Radio and TV they described the live programs by the meeting on air. 

The verses which tell about the news of the wars and disasters find their realization on the TV, that's why we have lots of space channels which deal with the news of the world. They are to embody the promise of the coming of Jesus like the lightening flash which fills the whole world. All the people whose works are connected to the TV came from the ancient people who believed in God and his promises.

The promise to the faithful and sincere people to live forever in eternal world came true by seeing the famous people after their death on the TV as if they didn't die. And you can see them any time on the TV screen. They conquered death like their master. Also, my explaining to the reincarnation from my own mission helps in showing that every soul lives eternally. The past life controls the present life which controls the future life. 

When you see the destruction caused by an Earthquake you see it in detail on the screen of TV. It embodies the prophecies told in the holy books about the End of Time which is not the end of the material world but the end of a holy project.     

The people who work on films and serials create new situations for living as if they embody the promises of the way of living in Paradise and Hell. Many live with the instruction of the city of cinema. They don't consider the old holy laws. They dance, drink, kiss and appear naked without feeling any shame, and hate who tries to impose the religious instruction on them. They represent a cast different from the public people.

They perform and sing for love and dance as a way to spiritualize the instincts and lusts. They don't consider the old morals planted in childhood. They celebrate the marriage by singing and dancing of semi naked women as a trial to enable the new couple forget the shame planted in childhood. The people who were destined to live in paradise due to their good past lives were given the free life and they consider the art and sport as a way for spiritual progress. They prefer to listen to music and see a film or museum rather than to do the religious rituals.  In hell the simple sins can cause lots of troubles. 

76- Gap in Discussions

There were always gap in the discussions with others either friends or relatives. Whenever I told anyone of them I am the promised Messiah he picked a point from his general knowledge to prove his denying viewpoint. Although I felt the shortage in their background I enjoyed the discussion.

My firm friend S.M., who accompanied me in my studying journey till we graduated from the same college as engineers and officers, said, "I had experience with you. You always change your interests. You keep busy with something then you leave it in a short period. So I am sure that you will leave that claim soon. Once you were busy by Yoga; it took long interval from you; once you were busy by painting; once you were busy by writing stories; once you were busy by philosophy."

 Now I wish I can tell him that I have spent more than thirty years busy with it. He had immigrated to USA to work in the field of engineering there.

My friend M.H., who was living in the adjacent house of my parents, was an exception. He believed me without any discussion. As he didn't have background in religions he didn't argue with me. I don't appreciate that way. There is no meaning in believing without investigating some points.

I distinguished him as the reincarnation of Napoleon but I didn't tell him my thought. One day while visiting my parents they told me he died. God bless his soul. Next visit a woman from his relatives  met me on the street and consoled me, "I know he was like brother to you." I said, "Did he suffer a disease?" She said, "No, he slept at night as usual; in the morning they came to his bed and found him putting his arm on his chest like that.", and raised her hand on her chest exactly like the famous picture of Napoleon.

Later on, while reading the Revelation to John I stopped at Ch. 9:11. "They have a king ruling over them, who is the angel in charge of the abyss. His name in Hebrew is Abaddon: in Greek the name is Apollyon which means The Destroyer."  I noticed that the name Abaddon points to my name Abdo and the name Apollyon points to the name Napoleon. The letter N at the end of Abaddon was cut and pasted to the front of Apollyon to give Abdo and Napoleon. It embodied in the historical General of France who invaded the world. In this age the verse embodied in making the houses of our parents adjacent to each other and I got the military career but my friend was excused from the military service.

My cousin A.Z., who was like brother to me, reminded me with some of the Quran and tried to convince me that Mohamed was the last prophet. He Showed big resistance to my subject, and finally said, "If you succeed with others I will stand with you.", and narrated something from his Islamic experience. He said,

"When I was in the interval of preparatory school I joined the group of a man that called himself Al Mahdi. I loved him and attended all his meetings with his disciples. But one day I saw him coming out of the public market carrying the vegetables and bread. His appearance as a man struggling in carrying his things in the hot weather made me change my idea of him. I saw he was just a man. I lost my admiration to him and stopped to follow him."

I laughed to hear that and said, "Don't you know that Mohammed was a trader and the public market was his field of buying and selling? It means that if you attended Mohammed age you would deny him."

"No, If I was there I would stand beside him," he said.

"Okay," I said. "You mean that as I am familiar to you, you can't get the required effect to respond to me on that level. People usually put the ancient holy persons in a high level as if they were not humans."

"No, not that," he said. "Ali the cousin of Mohammed approved him immediately without hesitation. That I can't do. I can't believe you are a prophet."

"Okay!" I said. "Never mind!"

One of the fellow officers, in the Navy College, entered my office with angry look and stood in front of me, while I was sitting behind my desk, and raised his closed fist against me, and said,

"How do you dare to say you are Christ? Stop that lest I should kill you."

"Respect yourself!" I said with decisive diction. "Watch your mouth and go out of my office."

"Our prophet (Prayers and Peace on him) ordered us to read on your face the first verses from The Cave. Listen to me!"

He recited the verses from Quran and left. Later on I read the instruction of Mohammed in this point. But it tells that this should be done in the face of The False Christ not Esa Christ. It means that he thought I was the false Christ. In that time I was still in my old character not like Jesus and I was ready to quarrel with him by hands although he was higher in rank than me. But it passed peacefully. Later I will show more of these types.  

75- AlKhadr Teacher of Moses

The most important knowledge I has been got during researching was that Jesus kept living till he became in my body. In Islam we learned from Quran that Jesus was raised to God alive. And from the book of Isra and Mearag which describes the journey of Muhammad to Jerusalem and heaven, we learned that Jesus and John are looking like each other and they stayed in the third heaven. So no Muslim knew the truth of the phenomenon of being raised alive to God.

Now after I was trained in seeing the relation between my past and present actions I became anxious to know what happened to Jesus after being raised to Heaven, and there was no reference for it except my own autobiography. However in that time of the beginning of my experience I was busy and didn't read the Acts of the Apostles in the gospel. Later I knew from it how Jesus helped from behind the veil in spreading his mission.

The name Raised in Peace, as I narrated before, came in the beginning of my journey to remind with the fact. Also, the main street of the Bridge of Law or Bacuos got a new name for the famous historian Al Rafay which means the raised. Connecting this with Genesis I could understand that Enoch was raised to Heaven like Jesus.  

The gospel of John starts with, "In the beginning was the word and the word were with God and the word was God."  Quran tells, "Jesus is the word of God." So, I thought that the burning of my book, Survival Call, in the hospital could represent a sign for the rising of Jesus like the rising of Elijah in fire. I remembered a lesson from Chemistry about the evaporation of materials; we took it in the secondary school. It is about the conversion of the material from the solid state to vapor directly without passing in the liquid state.

I was creeping toward the truth of the past slowly and through doubt. One day I was to go to Cairo to renew the medical card of my parents; and I passed by my uncle N. Salem. As he was like a friend rather than a father to me I told him my experience in Christ. He said,

"This is why they made you retire early. It is a dangerous matter. I have a suggestion!" He waited a while to here my reply.

"Okay," I said. "What is it?"

"I know a Sufi man in Helwan," he said, "let's visit him to have his opinion in your case." As I don't mind to be searched I agreed. Before leaving the house to go on the visit he said to his wife my aunt,

"We are going to visit AlKhadr to see about the reason of Abdo change."

"Do you mean AlKhadr, the husband of A. T.?" she asked. "Why? Is he haunted by evil?"

"We will tell you after returning," he replied.

We got on the Metro and my mind couldn't stop in thinking of the meaning of the new equation made by the names. AlKhadr was a name taken from the name of the Man of God who the Sufis know for the man who met Moses and seemed wiser than him. They say he lives for ever as the teacher of Sufism. This story is told in the Quran only. But the equation was that the wife of the man we were going to visit had the same name of my wife. As I didn't believe in coincidences I believed that the equation was prepared by the Holy Spirit.

The Bible doesn't mention what the Quran mentioned. Because the Quran intended to throw light on some hidden facts that can't be known except by reaching their level. In the Bible no one met Moses as teacher to him except Yahweh the Omniscient and Omni powerful. It means that Quran wanted to reveal the truth that Yahweh was a heavenly man alive in heaven. Jesus had understood that fact so that he said, "Who saw me saw the Father." He knew very well that he played the role of Yahweh as the deputy of God.

My uncle and I met a very decent man Alkhadr. He welcomed us and showed great pleasure. My uncle said to him,

"This is the son of my brother and I came to you to see about his situation." Al khadr looked at me with tender gaze and said,

"He has a Spirit with him."

"Is it evil Spirit?" my uncle asked.

"No!" he answered. "It is good Spirit."

"What is the name of that Spirit?" my uncle asked.

"To get the name of this Spirit," Alkhadr said, "you should attend on next Friday gathering "Alhadra"

"Do you mean you can't know now?" my uncle asked.

"Everything has rules and arrangements," Alkhadr answered. "However I have strong impression that the Spirit with him is good. Don't afraid for him."

We thanked him and left and I recalled that lately my parents took my picture and visited someone like that spiritual man. They said,

"When he saw your picture he shrugged and said, 'He is good. He is good. I can't say anything about him.' "

Of course I belong to the modern world that ignores these ways. I returned to Alexandria and didn't think of attending the Friday Gathering "Alhadra" which means the attendance of God.

Later on, I read the following in the story of the great Sufi Abdul Kader Algelany. He said, "I went to the desert of Iraq to live isolated from people. There I met a man and we practiced together some ways of spiritual progress to reach the attendance of God. After twenty years of staying in the desert I knew that my fellow was Alkahdr and said to him,

"You are Alkhadr! I have known it now."

"Yes, I am," He said. "Now you are ready to teach. Return to Baghdad and find disciples to teach."     

74- Two Nightmares

In a discussion I was asked, "What is the first event you remember from childhood?" I replied this: When I was three years old I left my mother and went out of the room. She didn't take notice and I walked the long corridor to go to the street. We were living in the ground floor. At the outer door I saw the basket of wastes and took something from it thinking it can be eaten. As soon as I put it in my mouth I cried. It seemed that my mouth became filled with needles and bolts. My mother heard my weeping and came quickly to see what happened.

She understood that I ate uncooked piece of Golgotha which is a fruit in Egypt known in English by Taro. Golgotha is its Arabic name as pronounced by the accent of Upper Egypt.  But in north Egypt it is pronounced as Kolkotha. So this cruel event was to remind by the event of crucifying Jesus at Golgotha. My mother took me inside the room quickly and made me a glass of water with sugar to drink.  Soon the needles and bolts vanished from my mouth and I stopped weeping. She didn't forget to say, "This is a lesson for you; don't you ever eat from the wastes." It became a complex in my whole life so that I insisted not to eat the Taro even if it was cooked. Later on in old age I could get rid of that complex. Cocked Taro is delicious.

Still there are two strange events. Also when I was three years old I heard my aunt while she was speaking with my mother and others with us in the house. She was in great tension and fear that her little child disappeared. They searched for him in vain and reported it to the police. When they returned from the police station they heard the weeping of the child coming from under the sofa.

Later I read in the gospel about the event of the missing of Jesus in his childhood.  In that reaction I seemed as a watcher unlike the above event. In the same house, this was owned by Abu Solomon, when I was about three of age, while I was playing in the street a son for Abu Solomon, older than me, pushed me before a coming motorcycle. The rider could hardly avoid tramping over me. I wept and my mother complained to Abu Solomon. The man was very angry and hit his son and blamed him for that evil deed.  

The second strange event is this: When I was ten years old my father bought a small house and paid part of the price on written condition that he should pay the rest next month lest he should loose the house and the money he had paid. The time of paying approached and my father became in great tension so that he lost his ability to speak. The doctor said, "It is a psychic case.", and gave him a medication. He continued on that case about a week. Later I read in the gospel and Quran that Zachariah the father of John suffered the loss of his voice for three days. In that event I played the role of a watcher too.  

When I was about eighteen years old I suffered the acne; one night I slept very annoyed and got a nightmare. I saw myself lying on a long bench and several doctors standing around me. The chief of the doctors cut my head and carried it on his big hand which appeared like a dish; and handled it to another doctor. I didn't feel any pain; it seemed as if he cut a piece of cheese. Soon I saw the chief carrying another head and putting it on my neck. Then he ordered me to get up to see my face on a mirror. When I saw that my own face changed to another person, although pure without acne, I felt very annoyed and soon I awoke.

Later on, I knew that it was a dream to remind with the cutting of the head of John the Baptist. It deserves to mention that in Islam we don't learn about it. After several years, I watched a film titled by "Face Off", and I wondered that this film was based on the idea of my early dream. It contained my same feelings when I saw I was with the face of another person.

It was not the first nightmare in which I saw a head separated from its body. When I was about twenty seven, it was after marriage, I saw the head of the cousin of my father that was killed long ago, flying under water while I was in the sea under water with him. The distance was very short and it terrified me. I cried and got up. This nightmare was classified under the ancient story of Saul in the Bible, that this relative performed brief touches from his story and his life ended by being killed. 

73- The Ball of Gergesenes

I noticed that I was given in my childhood, answers to some problems as it was destined that I would meet these problems. For example, when I read the Revelation to John I got sick of describing me by sheep. Yes that sheep seemed different as it had seven eyes and seven spirits; and he was destined to fight the kings and conquer them. In the beginning I took it as funny description and laughed.  But later it annoyed me. In my society it is great insult to describe a man by sheep. So in every time I passed with that description I felt annoyed.

I joined some Christian groups on Face Book and tried to convince them that Jesus can't be a sheep. But they refused my remark and refused the correction I suggested for the Revelation to John. I told them it can be corrected by putting the word Shepherd instead of sheep. But they refused my correction and reminded me with what John the Baptist had said when he saw Jesus. "This is the lamb of God that will raise the sins of the world."  I told them, there is symbolic meaning in that saying and it is very different from the picture. But they insisted not to agree with me.

All that suffering was sketched in my boyhood. Once, while being a student in the primary school, I gathered with two friends of my area at the house of one of them, to study together. The light of the room was not high and I slept. When I awoke I found out that my friends put spots and lines of colors on my face. I felt angry and blamed them for their foolish deeds. They laughed and laughed and I took it easy in the end. It means that my disciples couldn't avoid expressing some foolish ideas because they didn't understand the subject clearly and the parable of the plant and the thorn is applied to their sayings.  

In my childhood the Spirit tried to remind me with the terrible sheep. Once I was playing alone in the wide area in front of my house and from no where a fearful sheep emerged before me and stood on his rear legs ready to hit me by his long and thick horns. As I was not near to my house I ran in the other direction. But the sheep ran after me. Every time I looked behind me I saw him still after me. I reached the next area and entered the house of one of my relatives with lost breath.

The lady of the house took me in her bosom and tried to calm me. She was surprised asking what happened. I was unable to speak; but I glimpsed the sheep at the outer door hesitating to enter and finally he went away. When I came down and told the lady about the terrible sheep she smiled and asked a denying question, "Do you fear a sheep?" I thought to myself, "She didn't see his huge volume and how he was taller than me when he stood on his legs."

The Spirit also brought an event from the life of Jesus in my childhood. Once I went to the adjacent area and a friend called Gerges from my primary school met me there and gifted me a big amount of strings to use it for making ball.  I returned to my area happy and my friends there asked me where from I got it. One of them, on hearing the Christian name Gerges, mocked me severely and wanted me to return the strings to him. I refused and went home. But next days he continued to mention the mocking so that I quarreled with him several times for it.

Later, after my transform, I wondered to see an event for Jesus in the Arabic Bible in a place called The Ball of Gergesenes.  It was about the mad man who was haunted by a group of devils and Jesus sent them to the pigs that were drowned. In the English Bible that place was called the territory of Gadara and there is no mention to the Ball of Gergesenes. However I searched for it lately on Google and found it as the country of Gergesenes. It was a cruel method used by the Holy Spirit to engrave the incident in the memory. It was also an insult to tell a person, you are son of woman. I read in the Quran and Hadith the name of Jesus as "Esa son of Mary" It annoyed me and I tried in my writing to correct it to be Esa the Messiah. I knew that the Holy Spirit had to avoid saying Esa Son of God to be in compromise with the whole subject of the Quran.

In preparing a flat for my marriage I went with my fiancee to the market to buy some chandeliers. We admired two chandeliers and we bought them. One of them is a tray, on its circumference there are seven angels blowing seven trumpets, and standing on equal distances. They seem like moving in succession that their faces are in the same direction. And it contains three lamps. The glassy disc contains a quadratic star inside a shape of eight triangular heads. Sure it was to remind with the seven angels mentioned in the Revelation to John before knowing it by the consciousness. And it was to remind with number eight which is mentioned in the Quran about the eight who carry the throne of God.   

The second chandelier contains a big Crystal hanging from it. It was to remind with Christ that the word Crystal sounds like Christ. Now I remember another incident that happened in my childhood about a Crystal. In the preparatory school, once I entered the library and read a book about how to make the Crystal Radio. After a few months I could get the necessary tools to do it. After many trials by changing the Crystal I succeeded in hearing a voice from it. It deserves to mention that I didn't know the name Christ except after going to the English Institute. In Arabic we know it as the Messiah Esa not Jesus Christ. It is clear that the Spirit knows all names but He likes to approach the facts in different ways using the things around us.  

  

72- In The Focus of Creating

I always made revisions to what I had of information. I narrated before the reactions which brought the memory of Yahweh with Moses in my childhood. The transformation of the stick to a snake became the transformation of the stick to a gun etc. Now I recalled an incident from the preparatory school that can be added to that time. While we were in the break a student called (My Proud) approached and asked me to show my hands. After seeing my palms he said,

"They are reddish; this means you have anemia." Other students with us didn't agree and said,

"But it means excess in blood." He insisted and said,

"My father is a doctor; you should eat well to recover."  Just after he said that he showed us his two palms. We saw the very white color of his two palms. There was no red in them, but they matched the color of his snowy face. Of course this incident was to remind by the event when Yahweh ordered Moses to put his hands inside his bosom then get it out; and it came out of his bosom very white.

Also in the story of Adam I recalled some incidents that can be added to the reactions. In the preparatory school, I had a friend called (Father of all). So when I meditated how my new transform started as brief touches from the story of Jesus I became sure that this friend had been prepared by the Spirit to remember Adam the father of all. The matter seemed as if the Spirit had been trying early to remind me with the story of Adam.

This friend was living in the far part of The Street of the bridge of law in Bacos. We knew each other from the primary school before being together in the preparatory school. I visited him home several times and he introduced me to his elder brother. He also introduced to me a friend called Al Kalashany living in the house lying in front of his house.  When I meditated in the meaning of that rare name I found it sound like a brief of a few Arabic words put together as (All is for me). Later I understood that the word (All) points to the created and invented things upon the earth.

It means that Adam was in the focus of the mind of the Creator before creating all things. When The Creator willed to embody Adam on Earth the power of His will moved in different directions and created all the things and living beings before the getting of Adam as a human being.

I recalled also that once the presidents and kings of the countries around Egypt were of weird names; president of Syria was Assad (Lion), president of Saudi Arabia was Fahd (Cheetah) and president of Sudan was Nemery (Tiger). That was in the time of President Mubarak (Blessed). When we read the Revelation to John we see what he saw in heaven; we see his description of God while he was sitting on his throne surrounded by animals. So it seemed that those presidents were given as something to embody part of the Revelation to deduce that the meaning of the heaven is a futuristic place.   

I wondered why my autobiography was full of the holy stories of the bible. The matter seemed as if the bible was the scenario which God used to make me and my surrounding people perform with a new viewpoint. The stories were developed in the acting without exact similarity. It was like the many stories which were made as films but were not in exact similarity of the written papers.

We were taught in Islam that the miracle which God gave Mohammad is the style of the text of the Quran.  Its style surpassed the poetries which were the brightest activities of the people of his time. We were taught that God gives his missionaries miracles in compromise with the brightest activities of the people but surpasses them. Moses was given miracles in compromise with magic because magic was the brightest activities of the Egyptian of his time, but he surpassed them. Jesus was given miracles in compromise with healing because healing was the brightest activity of the people of his time, but he surpassed them.

My subject seemed the same. The brightest activity this age is in compromise with performing in the cinema, but my performing in the real life as led by the hidden hand of God surpassed all directors. Can any director lead his actor to sink in the sea and save him without interference? It happened with me to imitate the story of Jonah as mentioned before. The unseen director is clear in all stories. When He wanted to remind me with the story of Job He made a boy with us get the symptoms of Job's illness. The doctors couldn't heal him for several years. But He healed him in the end without doctors. 

71- I Won Golden Dish

I was still in the English Institute in the Christmas of 1982. The teachers prepared for the celebration and chose me among others to perform a little story, in front of a young woman, without papers, in the program of the party and I did it very well. They sang for Jesus Christ a lovely song, "Jesus Christ is here…"  I liked it and I was about to weep and I wished I could shout, "Yes he is really here this time!"  The teacher of my section was a beautiful lady called Sharon. Her voice was very lovely to my ears in this song.

Part of the program was titled by the parcel. A teacher came in front of all students and said, "This parcel contains a present and it will rotate among you with the music such that the one who has the parcel should handle it to his neighbor continually.  When the music stops the one whom the parcel becomes in his hand should uncover the parcel. It is wrapped in many covers and he should reveal one cover only. The one who will get it with the last cover will win the present."

Some students asked, "What is this present?" The teacher replied, "It is a surprise. Let's start now." Soon the music started and the parcel (scroll) moved from a hand to another and stopped several times with the stopping of the music. It seemed that the covers of the parcel were without end. The final stop came when it was in my hands. When I revealed the last cover I found a lovely golden dish. The teacher smiled and asked all to congratulate me and give me big hand.

My thoughts tried to find out the meaning of that symbolic event. The golden dish seemed to be the disc of the sun which represents the success and fame. So I was advancing in my subject believing that one day I would be known to all nations. Through doubt and faith I proceeded, so that every time I thought of the incredibility to be Jesus I received some information to confirm me.  

Next day at home, I wrote about the party two pages and I showed them to a teacher from another section. He said, "This is better than the real party." The teacher Sharon took the papers from me promising to read them at home. She wondered that I was the only one who made it without instructions.

When I read the book of Protocols of Learned Elders of Zion and the book of Masonry I believed that Jews have been working for me. I found out many ideas that were coming with my own ideas which I had concluded before. The writer of the Protocols speaks about the international ruler of the world. It matches the idea in Christianity that they pray for the coming of the kingdom of heaven which means the wish of making that kingdom on earth with the return of Christ. But the writer as a Jewish, not approving Jesus, didn't speak of Jesus, but he speaks of a Messiah independent from Jesus. So the Protocols seemed as an extension to the bible without considering the New Testament. It means that three religions are awaiting the same Christ.

The root of the idea of the kingdom of heaven came from the promise to Abraham and his people to own a nation from River Nile to River Euphrates by the power of faith in God.  When Jesus came and studied why the promised nation had not come yet, he understood the reasons and tried to amend the way. The reasons of the failure are briefly: the lack of Faith and the bad relation between the people and their God due to His sharp instructions, which made the Jews unworthy of the grace of the kingdom. The bible as a god couldn't help in making them realize the kingdom of Abraham. So Jesus, in wanting to amend the situation, gave new instructions full of forgiveness and mercy; and showed the power of perfect faith which can't fail in fulfilling any wish. Briefly he sacrificed the sharp instructions for the sake of success in attaining the promised nation. And he widened the promise to be a general kingdom all over the earth including all nations.

So when the writer of the Protocols mentioned the expression Ruler of The World he seemed knowing the final task of Jesus Christ. But for the national tradition he didn't mention it clearly. And many learned Christians deduced that the man who would unite all nations and rule them would be different from Jesus Christ. Some of them thought that Jesus will come from heaven at the end to fight that one who came from the earth. Some others stopped at the idea that the heavenly kingdom is a spiritual kingdom behind heaven and earth.

A very awful event happened. Sharon the minister of defense in Israel attacked the camps of the Palestinians in Sabra and Shatila and assassinated many. All the world news showed it. The coincidence that my teacher was Lady Sharon and the minister was Sharon made my mind rotate searching for the meaning. I found a prophecy in the Old Testament, I don't remember now, about some one called Bu Sharon.

I felt my dangerous situation in Egypt as a country against Israel. The peace treaty of 1978 between Egypt and Israel which was made in Camp David, among the presidents of the two systems, didn't reach to the lower levels. Many loved the treaty not for the love of the enemy but for the desire to get rid of the wars which coasted the country a lot and weakened the economy. It was very difficult to tell them that the return of Israel was in connection with the return of Jesus as a holy subject that happened to make some prophecies come true. "You won't complete the cities of Israel until the Son of Man comes," said Jesus.  This prophecy came true as I explained before that the new birth of Israel happened in May 15, 1948 and I got my birth in June 10, 1948. The word (until) was realized in a difference of less than one month.  I always thought that Israel was given by God as a political sign to confirm me, but who can listen to that from me without suspensions although I have never known any Jew or Mason or Zion. I was just like the actor Al Mohandas with his invention of transforming the cotton to cloth by a machine.